It's Sunday!

It's already one month since the start of IAP. Everything was getting a bit better. But one thing i hate is, i have to give a reply to the boss next week on what can be improve on the web. I'm just too lazy to work on it. Seriously, i've got no motivation in this company. Nothing's wrong with the company nor the people, just me who can't adapt the working life of this job. Haiz, anyway i've got my pay already. Although its very little, but it still give me some satisfaction. =) Oh and i'm now blogging with my new CPU. =D It's definitely faster then that old and slow and buggy(as in virus) com. I want to install Photoshop CS3 but i can't find the serial, so can't play around with photoshop and other designing programs yet. I'm missing my life in the past. My life when i was still a secondary girl. Life was so much better way back, but i know i shouldn't stay on in the past. Since the start of IAP, the time spent with my family and friends have gotten lesser and lesser. I just want a proper break to have my mind in relax mode. There's some kind of emptiness inside me which doesn't go away.

i need to change, somehow.

week3 day1

It's the 3rd week of IAP already. Time is not going fast nor slow. The everyday routine is tiring me out. Plus the flu i'm having now, my working progress is greatly affected. My mind wasn't so right today. I almost make a mistake that the company might has some lost. And there's mosquitoes in my house. Makes me itchy all over. And home's pipe is having some problem. If the tap is turn on too big, the water will came gushing from the hole on the floor, and then flood. Bro went to buy parts for the new cpu. He hasn't come home yet. Think he will be staying over at his friend's house. And wed off he go to search for that Mas Selamat(spell correctly?) Won't be back till 2 weeks later. Haiz. That damn person makes the whole sg couldn't have a peaceful day. And i wonder if there is God in heaven? If there is, can they hear my prayer? I just want myself to be more smarter. At least the IQ & EQ for my age. I feel so dumb in everything. Feel like i couldn't do anything smoothly. I want to be independent but independent makes me feels lonely. Sometimes i just wish i hadn't grown up, hadn't understand so much. Enough of this emo entry. Some random pictures from don't know when till today's.

It's 1+am now, gotta go sleep. Nightz all.

extreme tired

Ah~ I feel like i'm a part-time maid plus admin! Does an admin really need to do so many stuff??? And the boss talk to me today. He said he have a project for me. O_O It is to improve on the current web or add any things which is useful to the company. OMG. I really have no mood to crack my mind for now. I'm already content being an admin. I don't want any other stress anymore. Argh. Nvm, when he finds that i don't have the heart to do, maybe he will give up. Haha. Be happy, ShiHui. Tml is FRIDAY!!! Yeah~ 2 weeks have passed. Left about 10 more weeks. (-_-) Although i'm already getting use to my job, i still doesn't like it. Sometimes i wonder what is my strengths? Is it really the path i wish to take now? I don't know. I need support and comments. What will i be in future? I used to dream about being a singer when i was young but not now. I used to dream about being interior designer but where do i get the skills? My dream seems to pass by one after another. Which is the one that i'm going for? It's already the last year in NYP and i haven plan my future yet. Gonna be so lost when i step into the society. And i have been thinking about lots and lots of things while working. My brain's gonna burst soon. Anyway, results of the last semester gonna be out next week. Getting so worried about it. I had a very strong feeling that my GPA is going to drop.

Maybe i'll just hold back the tears.

When will you be within my sight?

Week 2

It's the second week of IAP and still the same. Work is boring. I miss my girls. Met them at amk after work today. I reached there quite late cause was being delay by that supervisor. I don't like her, not because she was mean but her attitude is weird. Suddenly hot suddenly cold, won't get what she wants. Anyway, was a short meeting with the girls. Tml have to work again. Sigh. Why doesn't time goes faster?! FYP-bored till no life? IAP - sucky life. Bro will be back tml! Finally, after 3 weeks of torture in Brunei. Haha. And yeah, i will be leaving office early tml cause i am going to attend the "Welcome back Heros!" party. LOL. Bro said it was mend to be a surprise for those army guys but all the parents went telling them already. (-_-)" So no surprise for them. Lalala~ let me escape to the heaven. >_<

Somehow sweet~

The start of hell days...

Aaaaah~ what a draining week. IAP starts on 3march, and all i can say is i hate the job. Imagine yourself having to face only two person everyday with the renovation workers. You don't even have colleague to talk to! The whole office is just the three of us! And i have to do so many things because i'm the only so called "employee" there. The supervisor keep on nagging and nagging. How i wish time flies now. I rather have FYP then IAP. At least i am not at some place which i don't like. And thank God, the weekend is here. I can only endure through the 3 months. And i can't celebrate fen's birthday this year because i have to work. Going to celebrate a belated one today and so does PW's one which wil be next week. And this morning i wake up in somewhat surprise feeling because i had a unexpectable, unbelieveable, so real dream. I gone crazy when i woke up. How can i have such dream?!! I'm not going to tell anyone this dream cause it's just so "crazy"? Ahh~ okay, going out soon. Bye peeps. =)

Just when i thought it will goes on forever..

poof*

everything's gone.