UPDATES!

Sometimes i wonder would i still be blogging when i'm 30? Even though blogging at 30 isn't uncommon. But see the date that i last blog, it's 3 months before! Starting to lose that blogging bug uh? Anyway, i'm officially graduated from NYP. Guess i'm the last to say this sentence. Haha.

Had a short vacation to Taiwan with some NYP people somewhere in march. Overall it was enjoying but didn't buy much cause mostly were sight-seeing and not much special item though. That explain why my girls are receiving key chains as present. And peiwen bought a nice & sweet stationary set from Hongkong for me. *smile* After coming back from Taiwan, i had some post syndrome. Was looking forward for any short family vacation trip but there comes recession and i put off that idea.

Went to Jurong swimming complex to play the slides and wavy pool with fen and wen around end of march too. We were in the hot sun for 4 hours and got ourselves SUN BURNT! @_@ My skin on the back and shoulder were peeling and it was so painful that week. And till now i'm still so black luh.

For april, it was basically just slacking at home. I finish Boys Before Flowers, watch Shugo Chara, KO san guo and blah blah blah. Then a picnic outing at Sentosa with fen, wen and jenni during mid april. It was an escape from the busy and boring life in singapore. How i wish island life never ends. =)

Then i went for job interview and now starting the training. I dunno why some sort of stress just come in. Cause there's so many things to remember and has to handle many phone calls. Not too sure if i'm able to take this job for 1 year. Especially now peiwen received rejection letter from both Uni and is thinking of finding other job. If she left, i would be so alone lor. And i haven accept NTU offer yet. There is too much programming in that course, thats why i'm still hesitating. The course fee is also a headache too. Although i don't know mum and dad have how much money for me to study but they keep saying have money to study de la. But i just think it is barely make it only. =/

Lost my way again.

星星啊星星，把我放在虚幻的世界 好吗？好不想面对真实的世界，好多烦恼， 好多问题， 好多是是非非。 每条成长的路都是那么辛苦的吗？ 我宁愿永远不长大， 做个开心就笑， 伤心就哭的平凡宝宝。看见那模糊的未来， 我好害怕走向他。 好希望我活在梦里，一切都如我所愿。 我只想做回以前那无忧无虑的女孩， 可以吗？

他让我想起你

over?

School's over already. I don't know if I'm ready for the working life outside. But these few days of so called working, i could somehow sense i not ready yet. I applied for Uni, but i don't know if i can enter. And i don't know if i can handle with the workloads there. There are times which i thought i had already grown up and know what i want, but most of the times, I'm lost.

当没有人在期待的时候，
自己还该继续期待吗？
如果寂寞久了，
是不是会麻木了？
酸甜苦辣，
有谁真正体会所有的滋味呢？
在这个世界里，
会有另一个自己吗？

Anyway, was blog hopping just now. Many people post about the double rainbow few days back. I didn't saw it, but well, at least i saw the photo. =)

Leaving for Taiwan in 2days time. Hope this trip could makes me forget everything.

Last week of school

Woohoo~ I'm indulging in my big mango pudding now. Yup, now is the wee hours and i'm still eating. Haha, blame my gluttony bug x) School is ending soon, REAL soon, like few days time? I still can't believe 3 years of poly just passed like this. It always seems like orientation is just yesterday and i'm gonna graduate tml that kind. Oh god, what have i been doing then?!! O_o

Anyway still left with 2 projects to rush and 2 common tests to mug for. And of cause one presentation for outsider. *sian =.= I'm sure gonna enjoy myself as much as i can before i step into the working world. It's like i haven had a holiday for a long long time. The first thing on my list that is waiting for me is TAIWAN! It's sort of a educational trip by the school but i don't care if i'll be bored by those educational things, as long as i can enjoy and relax myself.

Finally this little girl woman can go abroad. =) How much i yearn for going around the world. My little world map in my head is still so tiny cause the furthest i travel is Malaysia. I wanna orbit swim the world(huan you shi jie). Sometimes it gets you so high to dump Singapore island for a short period. Living here for so many years can really gets you bored sometimes.

Mentioning about oversea, bro is at New Zealand now. Everyone is asking him to bring cow back to SG. Haha. Seriously, i know nuts about NZ except the fact that many cows are there. I've got no idea what bro is bringing back. Hope he is doing well there.

And since i'm a optimistic today, i'm going to change my equation.
Me = living in unrealistic world
Living in unrealistic world = living in fairytales

therefore...

Me = living in fairytales =D

Gonna change my blogskin cause i can't use IE now and my blogskin is dislocate in Firefox. =S

my equation.

Me = Sagittarius

Sagittarius = Not wanting to grow up

Not wanting to grow up = Peter Pan syndrome

Peter Pan syndrome = Fairy tales

Fairy tales = Non existence

Non existence = Me

=(

So many things are incoming non stop. The deadlines of projects are getting nearer and nearer but there's just so many things that need to be done. I'm gonna burst soon. It feels like i can't breath anymore. I keep telling myself just one more month to go but why does this one month has to be so hard to pass by? Sometimes i feel I'm not me. It's like my thinking or my actions just doesn't seems to match, and some deja vu stuff. There's things which i think i could do, but end up i don't know anything about it. I feel so stupid all of a sudden. This kind of situation happens again. When i was pri.6 and sec.4 i've been like this too. It feels so naturally that some stress will come in. I don't want to have stress, don't wish my family to hope high on me cause i don't like studying neither do i like working. I need to find back myself, the real me that i'm losing.

CNY is just one week away and as usual no special feel coming. I just wanted to buy new clothes and eat new year's snack and of cause get lots of ang baos. =D I wonder if people nowadays celebrate CNY just because they have to or really understand it's meaning.

Anyway, my com is getting some mental problem with its system. And i lost so many links la. It's all in my favourites! Now i don't know where i could find them. Vexed.

Argh, all this emo shit. Maybe cause of PMS.

i wish to be the angels in your eyes too, but you're just too far from me.

december.hectic.

Wow, it has been so long since i update. Spider web forming already. =p

So many things i need to update. First is the common test. I think this is the worst test i've taken cause everything was left to the very last minute to study. Was already prepared for any worst scenario.

And next was the tons of project waiting for me to finish. Just by seeing the number of things need to be done already gives me headache. You know what? I haven start on any yet. Die man.

Last weekend was a big enjoyment cause it's my birthday! =D Haha. I'm so glad it turns out so successful. No serious arguement. No big big problem. Happy us at the chalet. =) But one thing is i didn't invite much people on my side. Majority were elaine's friends. And my clothes look like a towel. LOL. Wasn't in my best state but not my worst state either. Anyway, i enjoy myself. Thanks everyone for making this year birthday so special.

Next on the list is christmas! Many can't make it for the outing. =( But still, hope i could enjoy myself that day. Pray that day is not humid cause i don't want to get all sticky and sweaty. =X

It's end of the year soon, so its time for countdown too. =) Right now, left 8 more days before year 2008 ends. I want to go some countdown party or any countdown activity. It's the last year of poly, i want it to be a blast of activities. Enjoy myself to the fullest. ;)

I need to plan some time for CNY clothes too. Everything is going so rush.

Grant my wishes.

up up and away~

Watched 20th Century Boys on last saturday. Not a really good movie but not too bad too. Basically it's just about little boy's childhood fantasy coming true and "playing" with one another. And the logo is abit lame when you know it's bug's eye plus pointy finger. Holds no meaning. Anyway some super heroes thing la. Celebrate AP's birthday on Saturday, and glad she is happy. A new bag for her! But guess she needs some time to get used with the bag. Haha.

It's already november. How fast time goes. Piling up of things to do are moving slow. Anyway mum bought a mattress for me! It's like finally i got a proper mattress in my whole life. You can compare how thick and thin the 2 mattress are. Comfy bed makes me get weird dreams. Haha. Maybe just because i'm lacking of sleep that makes me had these dreams.

And i'm going tekong this wednesday! It is part of NE lecture to go visit the BMTC school. Although been there once, i'm still quite excited. Haha. And bro's friend show me one video of a person without limbs. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USUvzKDroqM

Quite amazing for a person with no limbs able to live so well and so successful. Thinking whether to go for the talk tml cause there's school the next day and don't want myself to get so tired. And there's still so many "i don't know" things to do. Haha~ i don't even know what i'm talking now.

Smile* =)

weekends

Finally it's weekend!!! =D For the start of the first week, everything is stressing me out already. New software programs to learn, big projects, small homwork, presentation for outsider at the end the sem and some miscellaneous factors. Big kid is not so easy to be. And this holiday mood is still in my mind.

School is so, so, so boring. I didn't have enough sleep for the first week cause the habit of sleeping late still can't be change. And for saturday, i slept till almost 3pm before i wake up. It was raining so it feels so cosy and comfy in my bed. Haha. Will try to change this habit if not i can't pay attention in class.

Anyway these few days have been playing with facebook, listening to new songs, checking out dramas and looking for movies. Typical life, nothing special.

summer dreams.