depress?

Got back my result. Initially thought my result was not bad. But 1 by 1 i went to ask my friends theirs result, i got more and more disappointed. They got higher points then me. (-_-) Its weird why didn't they ask me why i got lower then them. Anyway, the main reason is i have become a slacker, REAL slacker. The truth is i didn't put much effort in this semester. I am still in the holiday mood. Who can i blame? Myself. No use crying over spilt milk now. I couldn't bring myself to ask even more people their result. I don't want myself to get in a depression mode. Seriously, i hate the way i live now. I wish no one comes to disturb me. I wish no one fight or argue over small small things. I wish all my poly friends are happy, including those secondary school's friends. I wish this world have peace forever. I wish so much but all this are just wishes. I couldn't make all this wishes come true myself. I have not enough power to do so. I wish things can go back way before i was 8. Because the chinese teacher change my life when i was pri2. I used to be so talkative in class, used to be quite active in class. But now? What have i become? Ingoing...Quiet... All this sux man. My fate, my life change because of that fuking teacher. I hate her! I hate this world! I hate myself more for not able to be that cheerful girl again. What a 'life'?! I hope all this could end soon... =(