bad start...

School starts today. Damn bored lectures and tutorials make me wanna sleep so much. I like none of the modules. Bet i am going to do badly for this sem with so much things going on around me. I wanted to close my eyes so that i don't see the things i don't wanna see. But my eyes couldn't let me off. This kind of feeling is so weird. This is the first time i ever felt this way. ShiHui ah ShiHui, you don't live the way you live in secondary school now. You gotta be strong cause 'this' is how you know to be independent. Even though i know things like this is bound to happen, i just can't accept this life of mine. I am trapped in here. Why did i in the first place come to this place? I don't belong here, in fact, i don't belong anywhere. It seems like everywhere i go, i will bounce off from there. Maybe there is a place where i belong, i belong to me, myself. You never know how glad i am to see my galz when i go home. I feel like sticking to them forever. We don't say the word 'forever' cause we are already part of one another lives now. Without any one, it's like cutting my flesh off. I am so weak, so weak.