sucky monday

What should i post? I dont know. I hate every single thing now. I hate the kind of unexplainable(is there such word?) relationship with my classmates. I hate myself for not changing even if it is already year2. I hate myself for being suspicious of having financial problem. The fact is i dont know the truth. My brain isn't working at all but the brain cells are dying each day. How long does it takes for all the cells to die? How long does it takes for me to evaporate from this world? If i can, i wish to be MIA, a real MIA. An escape from this world of mine. Or should i say, away from this country,Singapore. The life here is making people not able to think purely, clearly, simply. Hah. I dont know why i am typing this post. Actually there is nothing big happens today, but my emotions are being messed up. Whats causing me to be so 'emo'? Everytime i am reaching school, i had a weird, cant be explain kind of feeling. Its like i am out of my breadth. It seems like i am back to my sec4. The feeling is the same, hate to go school. Theres just things which i dont wish to tell anybody, at least i dont wanna tell face to face. I am hating NYP more each day. I envious my bro of his poly life. At least his was more smooth sailing than mine. Maybe from the start i got everything wrong. I cant turn back anything now. My entrance had closed, whats left is the Exit door. I will just walk slowly and carefully towards it then. I dont want any thorns to hurt me.