i wish...

I wish I wish I wish...

i wish i know what i want in my life.

i wish i can stop having dreams.

i wish there's no troubles in this world.

i wish i can sleep forever, not having to worry anything.

i wish for a someone to take me out of here.

i wish i could change.

walking alone

endless thoughts

It's already week3 of FYP. Seems so fast but so slow when i'm in the lab. I hope the lecturer can be linear to me cause i've been really slack. I don't like the feeling of working alone cause i aren't independent at all. I so wish i was a 5 year old kid, so that i could cuddle my pillow all day and not think of anything. And somehow i think i lost memories or what. I need to read back my post to recall what has happen. I'm like living like a robot? My mind could just become empty like some wires in me just snap off. And then i will start to day dream. I hate this kind of life. It makes me so..so..so lifeless? Feel like a wandering soul in the school. Sometimes all these emotions just make me hard to breath.

Fly, bubble fly. Take me to anywhere, just don't burst.

wk2

I'm getting so lazy these few days. The things that my supervisor told me to do, i can drag like nobody business. And i didn't even bother to ask him about his requirements. (-_-)" Total slackness. Now i so hope i'm having my holidays. And i still can't accept the reality that i'm in Year 3 now. I don't wish to step into the society, guess i'm too pampered. When i was little girl, i wish i could know and do everything the adults do. But now, i rather i don't know anything and be a little kid. Human is always so contradicting. They never get satisfied with their life. After hearing so many tales or info from the ppl around me, i wonder how did i survive to the age of 19. Talking about age, i realised this year is my last teen birthday. I'm getting so old!!! Omg. And i start to think about what kind of life i will have when i grow up. Romance? Married? Children? Growing old? Is this the procedure of life? In fact, i don't know what i want. I'm person with no goal or speciality. I only have big big dreams that are most likely can't be achieved. And my brain is like getting emptier as time goes by. It's not absorbing any info. Argh~ enough of this mixed emotions.


Recently been addicted to the cute little Tzuki emoticons. I know i'm a bit too late, but who cares. =) The movements are all so adorable and funny! (>_<) Anyway, i wanna go shopping! GSS is here and i haven even step into any shopping malls yet. FYP is really draining me out. Whole day sitting at the com makes my shoulder ache so much. And my labmates seems to be getting along so well with each other except me. I feel like a zi bi kid. (-_-) But i'm NOT! I just don't know what to talk about. I am brain dead! Oh, and recently i done a quiz or whatever. It seems so accurate. It's like almost every quiz i take on this topic, the result will be the same. But i'm still doubting myself.

Missing those childhood times.