drained out!

Been so busy for the last few weeks. Finally has the time to come here to post something.

Exams are just less than 2 weeks for now. After so much time spent on project and assignments, i have to force myself to get in study mode. Seriously, the time i have now compare to last semester is so much lesser. So little time but so much work to do. Is NTU student born to be a robot? Totally amazed by how a school could make a person mentally damaged. And i found out something. I'm starting to get forgetful! Either is the damage caused by school or I'm aging?!!! O_O For goodness sake, I've not even reach my 21st yet, hope it's not aging. =X
And after coming to Uni, i experience the feeling of "peer pressure" even more. The people here are crazy man! Chiong here and there, like there is no tml. All aiming to defeat one another.(in terms of study i mean) I wonder how did i survive in this surrounding. And you know what? I start to feel staying in hostel does not help me mentally, because I'm still in the school!!! I need to bloodly hell get out of school whenever i got the chance. It's becoming like a jail to me already.
And bozhua keep stiring me with some guys. It makes me feel so awkward whenever i pass by or sit with "the guys". Even though i know he is just kidding and making fun, i just can't bring myself to..to like.. interact with "the guys" more? because i don't want "them" to misunderstand any of my actions.
Oh, and i super hate the "dislike/like some people" thing. Even if there is someone that you really don't like, just ignore them right? If they ever come in a friendly way to approach you, let them have the chance. Isn't it better to turn a foe into a friend, rather than keeping that dislike feeling in your heart, which pull you down even more? How long can you live in this world? Maybe you have already done something you regret and can't revert anymore.

Anyway, everything posted here is just my opinion. If any of the points sounds aggressive, i was not referring to anyone. Basically it's just a chunk of ranting i type up there. I just need get rid of this feeling bottled up in me.

p.s. bff, i miss you suddenly. =/