Sad??

It has been a long time since the last post. I will try to recall what happen recently. Hmm... attend my cousin wedding on the 23th. The place was at harbour front, very nice and beautiful scenery. Oh ya before reaching, we found a phone on the bus! Lucky hur? =D Daddy is using it right now. Oh right, monday suppose to be my presentation but because of too many people, i was being pospone to next week. So sad, have to bring my formal clothes again next week. Then this whole week was fun. The class is so united. We started to get along better and better, and all this happen in the basketball court, lectures and labs. Really love my class! Hope next semester no one repeat module. Can see that all of them are quite hardworking now. =) Just wanna stay like this forever.

But adding on to it, sometimes i feel so lonely. Maybe its me thinking too much again but i really wish there is a someone to protect me, to care for me, to talk to me. And i don't like quietness, but i don't know how to break this barrier. I wonder why am i born like this, why do i exist? For who i am in this world? I want the answer to all this Qns that have been going round in my mind for a long time but who will give me the answers? I can only pray for a miracle...

Boring again__

This is already week 12 of my poly life. June passed by real fast. I wonder why my course doesn't have common test on wk11. =/ But thats good, doesn't need to get myself so stressed up. After all, all the Quiz and Test i took were quite easy. Just that the projects are bordering me. Left 3 projects to do, haiz, hope i can finish them before wk15(dateline).
Currently watching the vcds from fen, the starting is quite nice so i will continue to watch.

Saturday going out to buy my formal clothes, have to use for wk15. Maybe buying a formal coat, inside just wear a normal top. Cash problem right now, hope the GSS could really pull down the price. The match on Germany VS Italy was really unpredictable. Most of my friends thought Germany is going to win but it was the the extra time that help Italy.

stress out-

Sch starts at 3 today and there is a test on programming later. I am gonna fail this test man. I totally could not understand a bit of what the teacher is saying. Or maybe just a little bit. Stress out for the whole last night. Kept on trying to absorb as much as i can last night but i just get myself even more confused. (=_=) Tingting msg me in the morning she is not going sch today cause of high fever. Oh god, lost 1 person who could help me. Really don't feel like going sch today. Feel so 'emo' these few days and dunno the reason why. Guess i still haven adapt to this poly life hur? The truth is i miss my old buddies very much, just hope i could go back in the past. I know everyone say this when they felt their lives are not going well but seriously, my past was better than present. Now i can only pray for a miracle.

emo?

Have no idea what's wrong with me nowadays. Can be happy at a time and suddenly turns gloom at another time. School is still fine except some classmate problems.Haiz. Time pass by really fast for last week, think mainly because went to school for only 3 days. Felt so left out the past few days, i dunno the reason but it's just that kind of feeling.Maybe i am thinking too much.

Everytime i told myself i wanna change, i didn't. I don't wish to be the 'me' now. Not feeling like a sagittarius which suppose to be active,playful,adventurous and blah..blah..blah... Quiet?Soft spoken?Innocent?Gloomy face? Thats not what my heart wish to go and not what i want to be. If only i have the answer to everything around me.

complicated me

Haven post for quite some time, lots of things happened. School starts last month, and everything is going smoothly. Got into a quite chatty class. Should i consider myself fortunate? Well~ at least its not gonna be bored for the 3 years.

Something i don't wish to happens,happened. Grandpa passed away. Didn't go school for the past 3 schooling days. Been holding back my tears till today, getting very emotional. Was thinking whether to go school tml, and the answer is no. Even though my fren said i would miss a lot of things, i think i can't concentrate if i go. Tml going with my family to go collect grandpa's ash. I guess the best people that i know are my family...

ordinary day

Friday went for the class BBQ, overall it was good. Except the starting where we had to find that BBQ pit. Walk under the big hot sun, still had to find what tunnel what blocks before reaching that place. The blocks are not in numerical order so we walk one big round and came back to the bus stop we had alight. (-_-)" But eventually we reach that place, and the guys reach there before us even if we left earlier cause they took cab. Then prepare the BBQ pit and started BBQing. Guess only our pit was on smoke that time cause it's only 3pm. After a while the dustbin was on FIRE! LOL! I wonder how it got fire. Put it off and it started again and it repeat for like 3-4 times before it really put off. And time passes really fast, its night time and got to go home. Took cab home while most of the guys went watching midnight show. Tired~ recommend a more cooler place for next gathering if possible.

Nth much more happen this few days. Sunday went to visit ah gong, he become thinner again and he looks weaker to me. =( Sad to see healthy ah gong become so weak. I just hope he gets better if possible. Things are just hard to predict and fate just play around with our lives. Haizz...

Wed going far east to get that bag and also got to buy my top-up card. My phone left about $2 only. Feel that this month i spent a lot, have to save money orelse really broke le. Yesterday while bathing saw a milipede in the bathroom. Scared the hell out of me. Everyone was asleep so i could tell no one. But luckily it crawls off and i don't know where it went. And there's a beetle too. Argh~ why are there so much insects in my house!?

joyfulness in me =)

Yesterday was pw birthday. We bought a watch for her, hope she really likes it and don't spoilt the watch again. Went to marina square to walk. The environment is beautiful even the fastfood restaurants are built so nicely. Had lunch at kfc but was not enjoying the food. Bought the popcorn chicken meal and ask for more chili sauce but she replied, "Urm sorry our chili sauce is limited cause it is out of stocks." Ok so everyone get 1 packet of chili only. Squeeze the chili, dip the chicken and bite it. Aww~ the chicken is a bit hard, feel like chewing rubber. Then walk around and nothing much to see. Therefore we went suntec to look around. The moment we stepped in a perfume smell filled the place. After we walk quite a distance from there we still smell it strongly. Fen said that guy was spraying the perfume like it is free, kept on spraying. (-__-) Shop around and bought a jacket at this fashion, which i think is quite nice. Then suddenly thought of fen need to buy her mum's birthday present. Totally forget about it till pw remind. Look here look there and bought a bag at espirit. The bag was expensive even though was share by 2 persons. After that went home cause pw's family wanted to celebrate her birthday too.

Came to know that another classmate is with the same course as me. I don't want to be in the same class as him if possible. Not because i dislikes him or what but just feel that it will be peaceful without him. =x

Friday going bbq with my 2005 classmates at east coast. Hope it will be an enjoyable day.

an ordinary day

Just a normal day where i sink into my pillow and stare at the ceiling.

Went to look for lifen's present today. Look everywhere around Junction8 but couldn't find a perfect present for her. Then pw suggested buying a bag, so we went looking at all those bags. Hmm..no nice one. Actually fen has everything, so it is hard to buy present for her. =/ Then went to perlini silver cause fen likes the necklaces there. Look around and decides on the pendant which has 3 different keys hanging on it. I wonder if fen would say it symbolises CPF (-_-) Then went on choosing the necklace strip. Saw one quite special so decide to buy that. Total price i shall not say but it's share among 5 persons. =) And so, i am broke. 1 week later have to buy pw present.

This morning went to check my posting result. Well~ didn't get into business informatic but into multimedia & inforcomm. I think it's not bad, right? Went asking around and most of our classmates are in nyp too ^^ Think will be seeing them around nyp quite often cause engineering and IT and chemical schools are quite near. But leng and fen got into business management. Cheers for them for getting in! Thats a good course i would have choose that if my result are good enough. Haiz don't talk about the result. Now it is about a different environment and gotta really work hard to show them i can do it! Urm.. i hope.