when things all went wrong.

Lots of things happened in just these few days. Buddy met some irritating incident and bestie is at her darkest time now. i wish nothing goes on the dark side again. Although our fate has already decide where we are going but when things really happened, no one would wants it to happen. Some things are beyond our control but some things we can decide how it should go. I can't lie to myself. I have no mood to do anything now. If this common test is a gone case, i would just have to work hard for other sectors like exams and projects.

心情变得好低落，好低落哦。

时间啊时间，

你是否能停留在从前呢？

能不能带我回去快乐的时候？

zzzzzzzz

Countdown 1 week before i die. =X Digging my own grave now. When the time comes, i will just jump into it. (=_=)

I just can't stuff any info in my brain. It is so weak., maybe it's gonna faint soon. Just don't faint at an unknown place. Alright, projects are already near to completion. I just need to focus myself on studying now. But i am always finding excuse not to study. *sigh* And i want DBSK new album's songs! And also fang da tong's songs, and all the nice nice songs.

My brain cells are dying. I need support! =/

一点推动力都没有

叫我怎么读书啊

我的天使跑去哪了？

快来救这个迷失的女孩。。。

woah

Skin changed again! Replace my wuzun with the bears. And the pictures are all done by me. (>_<) Haha. Actually the bear pic was done long time ago but just didn't put up. The side pictures were done recently. The whole blog still looks incomplete somewhere. Hmm, will improve when i have time. Lalala~ today is project day and lalala~ i am fainting soon. So many things to do and there's common test 2 weeks later. Why don't the lecturers just killed me. I won't accused them of murdering. =X Who said Poly life is more relaxing than JC life? Bullshit. Its equally stress, OK? Just that we are doing more projects while they are doing more worksheets. Give me back my life, give me back the happy girl, give me back EVERYTHING! ROAR!!!

i miss my bro. =X

unsure...uncertain...

How long do i have to go? When was the last time i am alive? Why are there troubles and problems in this world? Why humans have feelings? There are so many questions in my mind, but once again, everything just went unanswered. But it's okay, i am numb already. It's mood swing disturbing my life again. Maybe there's someone out there, someone who is able to awaken me. How long have i been unconsicious in this world? I don't know. But one thing for sure, i don't want to live like this. I have a life, but i am living in a 'no life' way. I aren't treating my life preciously. Everything went blind before me. My life become mechanical, routines and more routines. Maybe once in a while there is some surprises. But in the end, everything just went back where they are. Where have everyone gone? What are they doing? What is their feeling now? Seems like i only wanna know about others. I left myself as a mystery. Mr Unknown, will you come rescue me?

tired~~~

I am so dead now. Went for shopping from afternoon but end up buying nothing. -_- Its 3+ am now and i still not in bed. Common test and projects' datelines are getting nearer. You will see my grave soon. *yawnz* Shall blog again when i have the mood.

*purely coincidence?*

woohoo~~haha

Wee~ i am on a great mood today cause it's bro's enlistment day! And also partly because i never go school today. Haha. Bad girl hur? I've got mood swing recently. Anyway woke up early in the morning to get everything ready. Had prata for breakfast and it was quite full for me. Next, cab to pasar ris interchange for the bus to terminal. Shipped to tekong island. Separate from bro and his friend who is going enlistment too. So the "family" went to look at all the facilities there. And there were clones everywhere! Haha. Every army guy looks the same to me. xp I saw girls in the platoon too. Next, there was some ceremony and off for FOOD! Meet up with bro and his friend during the lunch. The food capacity is huge and the food is not bad too. Didn't manage to finish all the food. Oh, and bro and his friend are together for the whole training cause they are in the same sector and their beds are side by side. Lucky them. Thats what we call brothers for life, right? Haha. =D And right now waiting for the first call bro is going to call back tonight. =)
* i feel like a little child today x) *

Everyone is growing up. So fast bro is in the army le. Does this means i have grown up too? And whenever the thought of what to do when i graduated, i get all these "????" popping out from my head.

酸甜苦辣。

我现在的生活是在哪个阶段呢？

I'm breaking down soon, real soon. I've been knowing things i shouldn't have to know, and don't know things which i should know. My life is totally messed up, wrong track and lifeless. I just don't what will happen next. My 'existence', can i lose this thing? Can i have no existence for just one time? Just like one anime i watched, i'm a flame, eventually i will fade out. And when the flame becomes dimmer and dimmer, my existence becomes lesser and lesser. When the day i fade out, no one will ever remember i exist before. There will be no such person in this world. Somehow i can't be optimistic anymore. I am on the dark side of everything, so dark that i couldn't see myself anymore. I am so tired, so weak to move on. I am racing against the time. The result? Hmm...most probably i will lost.

为什么人要有那么多情感？

为什么我的天空是灰的？

我的笑容到哪了？

感觉好孤单又好像不是。

连我的梦都变得好奇怪。

我到底要什么？

我是谁？