Energy draining.

IA starts for 3 weeks already. Feels that the workload is still light at the moment and still in the learning phase. But the problem is, i don't talk much to my supervisor. Whereas i talk to another team mate more and often get my task from him. I know this is definitely not good but i just don't feel like communicate with him. Everyday i just want the time to pass by faster and go home. But i know everything that i'm thinking now is not good. The travel distance alone is enough to drain my energy, needless to say after a day's work. Not having a full breakfast is so common to me now, just because i want to sleep a bit longer. But lucky when i reach office i still have some time to munch on some things. The starting time for work is sort of push to 9am, as everyone just happily go eat their breakfast and comes in office around 9. And those managers or higher position people comes in even later.

I'm waiting for my first pay to come in. =)

Dear brain, drop that dream off, for now.

Holiday ending...

Just a few more days before IA starts. How fast. I haven enjoy myself much yet. =( And thinking about how far I'm going to travel to work really dampens my mood. Maybe i should go flip through abit on SQL and database thing. After exam, I gave all back to the lecturers already. Seriously i need to get myself into the working mood. I don't know how bad or how good this internship is going to be, but i wish i pass this period peacefully. =)

Going to school tml for the IA briefing. To be exact it's today! I'm still awake now even though i need to wake up at 8am later. A little late for it think won't matter much right? =X I only wish time goes super duper slow now. It's so hard to accept the fact how fast things are moving around me. Need some time to adjust myself again. =/

Last week of June.

Time passed so fast. It's already coming to the end of June, and it means holiday is ending soon. The dreadful IA is going to start soon. The past 1 week i have been getting so weak with my body. First it was the sore throat, then fever, then flu, then cough cause of phlegm, and now i've got a swollen eye. My eye turn from a double eye lid to a single eye lid. Today when i woke up, i could hardly open up my left eye. Initially was accompanying Mum to the doctor appointment but with this state, how am i suppose to go out.

That's my big small eye! Hope it gets better tml. It feels so itchy right now. Mum say i look like i put eye shadow. =_= Where got eye shadow put till become eye so small de?!!

And i haven buy finish my clothes for IA yet! Time is running out. Why must June passed by so quickly? It felt like i haven done anything. Oh, and my appetite seems to be smaller after i fell sick. Need to find back my appetite again, cause i wanna eat good food! =9

Been telling myself to sleep early and use lesser com. But now, after one whole day of not using com, here i am again. Haha. I'm just too stubborn to go sleep early. Not in the little bit mood of sleepiness, how am i suppose to sleep.

K, I'm off to Facebook again! =)

lazy girl

感觉自己好没用哦。不去做工，读书又不好，每天在家无所事事，真像一个废人。几岁的人了，对生活那么没目标，怎么行呢。我老是羡慕其他人有多么多么好，觉得自己很差劲。我知道我不应该这么悲观，可是脑海里就是一直出现这种想法。虽然对生活有点累了，但是只要休息一下就能看见这世界还是美丽的。=）

Gotten my results yesterday and i passed all. =) Was really scared that i fail some modules this sem from the outcome of the exams. Every exam hall that i came out, only one word to describe "Die~". But lucky that i cleared these modules, i wouldn't know what to do if i'm to take these modules again. And i finally passed my elective! =D The lecturer is so kind, cause seriously i think i did badly at the paper and there were some blanks. But my gpa is still far from a 2nd lower. =( I wonder if i will ever make it there.

I'm being a crouch potato these few days. Nua-ing at home. =_= And I've been sleeping very late, like 3 or 4 am. Bad cycle, i know. Will revert back to normal life before IA starts.

And i want to go out of singapore! I haven do my passport yet cause my family members are so not enthu about going travel. =( And i don't know how to find travel agency to book things cause non of us has done it before. Considering there is only about 20 days of my holidays left, I'm not so sure i still can travel. =(

gonna try this some day. =)

June is here. Left with around 1 month of holidays for me to relax. Haven really went for shopping. =( Everyday eat, play, sleep, watch tv, sometimes do housework, and stare at wall thinking what i should do today. I'm going crazy soon! Bored to death!

if facebook has this much status, it would be good. =)

Active during the night but it dies down quickly too, due to boredness.

Being a slacker

I'm being a slacker again. Staying at home doing nothing, staring at the ceiling. Yesterday went to my IA company to sign contract. The person told us not to spread bad things about the company on Facebook or whatever website, so not being mean, i would not say out the company name here. The first thing he mention was the $750 salary without CPF contribution. That was disappointment number 1. Next was the location is not what we assume it was. The actual location seems much further. =( And I've got to start work at 8:30am with formal wear. That's what i hate most. I hope the company is not going to give us heavy workload or else it's really blacklisted by me. Anyway, I've already sign the contract, so just see how it goes.

And i really want to go shopping, eat or play!!! Cause i know i won't have school holidays in the future, so must enjoy myself now. ^^ Need to find a time to meet my old friends. It has been so long since i last seen them. Wonder how are they? Think there will be lots of updates when we meet up. =)

Still thinking how should my holidays go. Not too short, not too long, so hard to plan things. Maybe i will end up staying at home whole day, downloading movies, playing games, watching drama or shows. Typical "宅女". =X

Alright, off to my dinner. =)

Freedom!

EXAMS OVER!!! I smell Freedom! =D Although i know the result is going to drop like hell but i couldn't care about it now. Really drained out by this semester work load. I just want to have a nice long rest before IA starts. ^^

Going Malaysia tml with the Uni clique. My second time going shopping there. =) Hope i can grab some nice, cute or cheap stuff there. Haha. Have so much things on the I-want-to-buy list. The GSS is coming again, and i have the urge to spend on something. You know, most girls always like to buy things without thinking its usefulness. I might be one of the girls too. =X

As for the rest of the holidays, I'm just gonna slack. Haha. Maybe planning a short trip to genting or somewhere nearby with my family. =) For my whole life, the only countries I've been to are Taiwan and Malaysia. So i wish to travel some other countries too, provided I have the money. Hehe.

And i want to learn make up but putting make up would means i need to put contact lens. I know it doesn't need contact lens but wearing specs is not nice with make up. =/ And I'm afraid of putting the lens into my eyeball. It just looks so scary. Not the putting in part but the taking out part seems more difficult. In dilemma. =.=

Aren't they cute~? xD

if only...

just one day.

It always happen like this. Before i go in the exam hall, i feel nervous like hell. Into the exam hall, my brain cells died on me. Out of the exam hall, depressed. Will there ever be a time when i go in the exam hall confidently and come out smiling?

Admit it Shihui! You're just not interested in studying anymore. And yes. I'm getting really tired from this education path. Now i get the feeling of just go into the working society and do whatever i can, since i think i'm wasting my time now. =( I really need much more motivation and interest to continue. Sometimes when no one is looking, tears just form in my eyes. And before i look up at them again, i tried to hold everything back in me. No, I'm not being strong. It's because i know only me can help myself. No point letting the ones i loved worrying about me. I don't like keeping things to myself, just that i don't know how i should tell others.

Alright, enough of this negative feeling. Need to mug for friday's paper now! Bye.