sad sad sad sad*

Haiz. Sad la. Send the survey form out none reply back. So sad, no one want help me. =( Haiz..so many projects to do. Thinking of them makes me so giddy. I am now totally in a "slack" mode. Don't wanna to anything at all. School sucks. Projects sucks. Lecturers sucks. And life seriously sucks too. Wonder why hadn't i study harder in secondary, then i can be with my friends. =( Now i feel so "far" from them. Is life going to continue like this? I don't want, i don't want.

Have not been posting for quite some time. Miss me? O_o LOL. Common test week was over, guess not much hope in my CMaths. It was hell LOT difficult then last semester's paper. Why so unfair? =( DMD looked perfect to me, hope the mark looks perfect too. =/

Okay. For now, my lovely holidays start. But the truth is, it's not gonna be lovely as i think. Projects and assignments line up in a row endlessly. How am i going to enjoy? Now i can't even bother to take a peep at those papers. I am slacking down again. How? Been playing Pirate King Online for the past 3 days. And i think i am kind of addicted already. Argh, no mood for school work anymore. I predict this sem my GPA gonna drop. =( Some said this semester is easier, some said it's difficult. Actually it's not difficult during lesson time but when it comes to assignment, it's a different story.

K, enough of my grandmother's story. Making you bored, i know. In about 2 days time? It's gonna be MY DAY! ^_^ Or should i say, the day when my mummy suffered so much? (>_<) I wonder how many people remember? =/ Christmas is coming too. Got to prepare presents for my friends. Seriously, i didn't celebrate Christmas before. I just 'join' in the atmosphere. K, thats all for now. Bro is rushing me to log in PKO with his friends. (T_T)

BYE.

I feel so 'tied together' now. It's like everyday is TODAY. Keep on repeating what i have done and is stuck on a day. Today go school with the kind of dead eyes, cause i know monday is always BLUES. And there are 'people' who keep on asking every week that what i am doing during the weekends. Seriously, i don't know what i have been doing and i am sick of saying the same things over and over again. Argh~ i want my CHRISTMAS!!! Can i skip this part of life and directly go to 25th dec??? HAHA. Of cause i won't. I wouldn't want to skip my b'day away as well. Chirstmas is special cause it's also my grandma's birthday. ^_^ She's a christmas's baby, just like Jesus. Heez. And i look fatty. =( Need to slim down. I won't look nice with all those fatty fats poping out. It will look weird. And recently i find that there are some clothes which i never wear before. Wasting money again. (-_-) I keep on thinking about money matters. Not long before my eyes turn into this ($_$). It's almost 4am now and i am not sleeping. =X I feel hungry but cannot eat, need to slim down. Haiz. I am going to my lalaland to find food. Cya. =)

omg

Omg omg omg. Just saw this MV on fahrenheit's blog. Both Chun and S.H.E are in it. My favourites. Chun looks so CUTE~. =D

lalala~~~

The whether has been going weird lately. Everyone, please take take of your health ya. =)

Today lesson were okok only. Maths is getting a little boring. But the lecturer is fun la. Haha. Next, OOP. These 3 letters were like curse to me. I hear it, a feeling a boredness immediately struck me. Luckily, today not much concept to absorb. There's lab session today. The code seems so easy but the formula is hard to find. Thanks to that weird lecturer, he said it could be found in the book, or else i wouldn't finish so fast. Going home after i finished. Most of the classmates are still working hard on the code. Have i got talent in all these programming? But too bad i don't like it. It sucks lor. Makes my brain crack like hell. Oh ya, when i reached yishun mrt i heard Rain's song???!! Looked around and saw a cd player on top of the poster frame which had Rain's poster. Wow~ Rain's concert has so much advertising, and here they are advertising again. (-_-) For goodness sake, even if they don't advertise the tickets would have been clear lor. But, i still like my Fahrenheit. xD Haha. Chun is one of the member. Was attracted by him. Heez. And yesterday saw a shuai ge when entering ELP. Omg, the Mr.Perfect. Haha. He just looks like a superstar to me. =D

And my passport has been made. =D Haha. Must be wondering if i go abroad before? Yes, just once to johor. (-_-)" Too bad i come from a poor family. No chance to go vacation. And i had NEVER been to Changi Airport before. Sad right. Been living in Singapore for the past 16 years and i never been to my own country's airport. There are still a lot of places where i never been to. =/ Who will bring me there??? Felt so suku. I wanna change phone! I need MONEY $$$! I need a job! Bro went to upgrade the maxonline and get a free computer. But he is going army soon. That means the internet bills are to be paid by ME. Mum said she would pay for the first half year? But still, i have to get a job. I still got a lot of things i wanna buy. More money = needs job. Haiz. Everything about money money money.

Nitez everyone. =)

weee~

Hmm...time pass really fast ya. Tml is TingTing's birthday! Haha. There's going to be fun tml. =D As for today, everyone is getting HIGH ya? Hahas. Today was fun la but i dont know what i had learnt. (-_-) My mind become blank whenever i come blog. Dont know what to type. Oh ya, tml there's DF test. Hope it would be easy. =)

Bye.

sick me =(

Please ignore the last post. I think i am sick from last night already, thats why that post is there. Today early in the morning wake up, i already felt unwell but still,i went to school. There's many lessons on Monday so can't afford to miss. But i never thought my throat would get this bad. I can't speak right now or it will hurt like hell. And i am starting to feel so cold when my mummy and bro feel warm. OMG. It seems like anyone who touch me i will feel sort of 'pain'. My skin seems so thin. =( Bad bad. Don't know tml going school or not. Haiz. Going to my little nest now. Bye.

haiz...

Research shows that people who live in Singapore are unhappy people. Absolutely agree with that. People here are 'smart', too smart that they tend to think things which are impossible. They stress themselves without knowing. Too many realistic things here. Maybe, one day, if we can't hold on anymore, migrating is the answer. For those who are poor will just have to be an unhappy person. Some things are just not within our control. I wouldn't end my story in a painful way like others. I want to live, live to the very end, to see if this world is such a beautiful place. Everywhere i went, i saw people with mask. They may think that they are not wearing but the truth is, everyone has some things which they only want themselves to know. But the more i grow old, the more i find that this world isn't beautiful at all. Sometimes i wonder if i have depression or any mental illness. I don't understand human, and you could say i don't understand myself as well. I hate the human race. They are just so pathetic. Why am i born to be a human? Human is such a scary thing in my dictionary now. Suddenly i feel that everyone is alien to me, or should i say i am an alien to everyone. Damn, whats wrong with my mind? How can i type such a post in a public blog like this? Disgrace the human race right? Kill me then.

damn tired

Went to town today. Before we reach it was already raining. Damn weather made me feel so sleepy. First stop was to Shaw House's Isetan to get my vouchers. xD Nothing for us to buy so we left there after a while. Off to far east for fen's shoe and formal shirt. Next, we are finding where is the The Wallet shop. I thought i saw Heeren have, but guess i am wrong. Then to Cineleisure for bag hunting. We were very tired by then, so that was the last stop. Walked around and PW and i bought our bags! Mine is sort of bronze color and PW's is black. =D And we get a membership card. Went into the Apple shop too. I wonder why their monitor is so damn WIDE. And i still can't really figure out how to use their computers. Saw the iPod which can see movie. It was nice. =) But didn't get to see any iPod mini there. =/ And home we go.

The weather is so cold nowadays. Gotta grab more clothing to wrap myself. Mummy mentioned about going on vacation at what 'jing ma lun'. I don't know where the hell is that place, only know is at malaysia. Fen said it is what cameran highland [don't know spelling]. I asked about what's special there. Mummy said go there eat strawberry lor. O_O What the ~~~~. Cause there's many farms there. I don't know la. Didn't give mummy a fixed answer, and she can't reply to my relatives who are going. Daddy agreed. Bro agreed. Mummy is kind of enthu?! Me? Confused. =/ What should i do???

slacking away___

Went to watch Flush Away just now. =D It is humourous. Laugh almost all the time. =)










It has been sometime since i last stepped into Orchard. Everywhere is filled with Christmas's atmosphere. And i am craving for more movies! (>_<)

Material Girls *Hilary duff is in it* x)

COLIC *loves thai horror movie* x)










ERAGON *fantasy movie. whoo~* x)















And the list goes on and on...
Today's lab was more interesting. Get to convert the music/sound into weird weird tone. Some turns out like dinosaur's super low tone, while some like squeaky mouse's sound. Haha. It was fun la. =) Wednesday has always been a slacking day. DF was boring. Shouldn't have brought its book to school, so heavy. And the thing he said has already been taught at lab. Feeling so tired now. Maybe i would go take a nap before dinner.

happiness + painess

Whoo~ today is AP's birthday. Give her a HUGE piggy. Haha. She just loves pig. =D Glad that she loves all the presents she had received. =) There should be a small cake but Elaine wasn't here cause she is sick. And still the same, Monday's madness. The 3 of us are going mad at Mac. Haha. Sounds rhyme? Later, tingting had to go for her CCA, so left the 2 of us. =/ Lesson end early today cause 2 lessons were cancelled. =) Yup, so went home early. Tests are coming real soon, and i haven got myself the least preparation. I think i am gonna fail for the modules. Next on the birthday's list is tingting. What should i get for her? 18 Tomatoes? O_O Haha. Of cause no la, will know when time comes. Oh ya, my ear is damn rotten(swollen) now. The ear stud head pierce halfway through my earhole when i woke up!!! O_O Had a hard time pushing it out in the morning but i did pushed it out. Can you feel my painess? =( Those who think is digusting don't even try to imagine. But i still can't take it out now cause i can't grab the head. So it's hard to take off too. =( I hate this!!! I hate this!!! Why everytime i pierce ear sure got something happen. Maybe my ear not suitable for piercing. Anyway, will try my best to remove that stud off as quickly as possible.

going crazy

Saturday finally came!!! Blues* =( Initially though would be going out with Fen they all but guess they have something on. =( So boring at home. There are mainly 3 things i had done today, watching tv, nibbling on some food and using com. And i can feel the weather getting hotter. Damn it. I think i'm gonna fall sick soon.
I hate my hair! The more i see it, the more i detest it. x( Argh~ maybe i have to go Yun Nam to build my hair?! O_O I keep on having a feeling that there is someone around me in school. And i had a feeling i know that person but in fact i don't know. I don't know what am i typing. Maybe it's just me being paranoid. =/
K, i am off to nibble food again. =)

wooohaaa

Wahahaha~ Was jamming O2Jam just now. The music were going x2, x3, x4 and x6!!! Haha. Shiok man. Even though i never play so fast before, i was not the last position la. =) Am i good? Hehe. Before the lvl14 and 16 came in, i was still the first okay. Don't play play ah, i am not so bad. xD

Haha, enough of the game. And yup, i cut my hair le. It's just damn not nice. =( Got to do something to my hair. Bro keep nagging non-stop that it's no different from last time. He say i didn't style it. I GOT! OK!! Just that it turns out so weird, hence i tied all up again. =( My hair is thin and light and less. I don't know what to do also. Pw went to cut with me too. But her hair was kana cut till so short lor. All because she said too softly, the hairdresser didn't hear it. Anyway the hair makes her more cuter? O_o

And CHEERS! For tml is friday! =D I love friday. Haha. Weekends gonna go shopping! Weee~ xD Dunno what to post le.

Bye bye.

dead___

This is a dead blogger. (-_-) Seriously, i don't know what to blog. Everything is just as normal as it could that nothing interesting for me to blog. =/ AP's birthday is coming but will there be any celebration? Everyone seems so busy. Haiz. Anyway today went school for 3 hrs only. Almost forget the lecture is pushed forward. The lecturer is so DAMN boring lor. Actually i am not in the sleepy mood. But the more she talked, the more i yawned. Add on to the cold condition, i almost doze off. Tml lesson is at lab. At least i got to do something practical, or else it would be a boring day again. Most probably would be cutting my hair tommorow. Hope it turns out nice. =) Lalala... I keep on having weird dreams nowadays. Maybe because of lack of sleep, i don't know. Sometimes i don't even remember what i dreamed, i only know it was weird. Kkz, i am off to my lala land now. =)

hmm...

I wanna change my blogskin again. (>_<) But i need a designer. =X Haha. Cause my drawing sucks, i only know coding. =p School today was not bad. =) But the lecturer is weird. He squad on the chair while teaching?! How weird is that? I wonder why can't he just sit down, maybe his ass got problem? =X Another weird case is in the mrt. There was this boy/guy walking to and fro in front of me. I was sitting at one side. He looks like a boy from the whole but look closely, he got an 'uncle' face and he got big belly. Just like an ah pek who drinks too much and got big belly. And he dressed like an ah pek too. =X Opps* I shouldn't have comment someone like this right? Everyone has the rights to dress what they want right? Hehe. Alright, i got to go sleep now, school starts at 10 tmr. Hope it will be an interesting day. =D

the peaceful day~

School today was peaceful, really peaceful. Tired days are coming soon in fact, i am tired now. Somehow my brain is not working hard enough. All the infomations have been going in one ear and coming out the other ear. Yesterday after hearing what bro said, i felt so low~. I don't want myself to be like that too. But my body and brain just hold me back too much. I envious everyone... i can't do what they do.


i love my family. =D I love my bro cause he understands me the most. I love my mum cause she makes me feel like a little girl everytime. I love my dad cause i am being dote on. x)

ahahahaha~~~

I am so damn vexed with the sms half an hour ago. ARR~ it's in chinese, i post it here see who can answer it. “考考你的智慧：什么车无轮？什么猪无嘴？什么驴无毛？什么屋无门？什么书无字？什么花无叶？按序每句迷猜一个字，六字能连成一句话。” Anyone can answer? People just keep sending and sending but don't have the answer!!! (-_-)" So i don't have the answer too. I am waiting and waiting... and i can't solve it. Argh. I think i heard this somewhere before but can't really remember. =/ Anyone knows the answer???

arrrrgh~

Argh~ The Computing Maths is driving me crazy. Don't know what it wants, can't get the answer. =( Have to use what complement when you can actually minus straight away. Haiz. Maths are just so complicated. Tml have com skills again. I hate that module even though it is important. And tml is gonna be a long day again. =( *blues blues*

I reject AP's offer of watching Death Note, and i reject PW's offer of watching Death Note too. I think i disappoint them, sorry my 2 girls. =/ Just because both of them ask me on the public holidays, damn expensive to watch during those 2 holidays. I'm so poor. Therefore, i end up not watching Death Note. It's ok, i watch it's anime then. =D Oh ya, been playing O2Jam for the past 2 days. I am still a newbie in it. Can't clear a lvl4 song yet. =(

And here is my dad adding on to the PSI in our house by smoking and smoking. (-_-) I am going to suffocate soon.

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Stupid blogger. Want type a post also so difficult. Anyway, my back is so pain now. I don't know why. So unbearable lor. Haiz. It seems like most of my classmates are feeling "down" or what. Hope they can be happy again. I wanna see the smile on everyone's face. =D When i said everyone, i really mean EVERYONE, including some who i am not so close also. I don't like to carry all these problems with me. I throw them on my blog. xp Haha. Last few days the haze was like keep on staying at unhealthy level. I think my health sort of affected too. Sore throat, headaches, Stomach not feeling good, and now back pain. x( Have to drink more, more and more water le. =) Oh ya, and school today was fine. The DMD lab was quite interesting, although the lecturer is boring at some times. Get to play with with Photoshop again. Weee~ xD It last for 4 hrs (-_-) damn long lor. Have to finish up 2 lab assignments at once. But both are easy la. =) Next is the Database. The lecturer taught so fast lor. 1 hr finished a few chapters already. So gan chiong. =X All right, i'm so tired now. I better go rest if not my back sure break.

bad start...

School starts today. Damn bored lectures and tutorials make me wanna sleep so much. I like none of the modules. Bet i am going to do badly for this sem with so much things going on around me. I wanted to close my eyes so that i don't see the things i don't wanna see. But my eyes couldn't let me off. This kind of feeling is so weird. This is the first time i ever felt this way. ShiHui ah ShiHui, you don't live the way you live in secondary school now. You gotta be strong cause 'this' is how you know to be independent. Even though i know things like this is bound to happen, i just can't accept this life of mine. I am trapped in here. Why did i in the first place come to this place? I don't belong here, in fact, i don't belong anywhere. It seems like everywhere i go, i will bounce off from there. Maybe there is a place where i belong, i belong to me, myself. You never know how glad i am to see my galz when i go home. I feel like sticking to them forever. We don't say the word 'forever' cause we are already part of one another lives now. Without any one, it's like cutting my flesh off. I am so weak, so weak.

anti-school!!!

Arrr... school starts tmr. Seriously i don't like school, i don't like studying. =( I don't how am i going to face my classmates after such a long break. Will we get further apart? I wish everything stays in year 2004. =/ Maybe that's the best year i had. What to do? What to do? What to do???

daily updates

Wednesday - Went to Marina Square then to Suntec then to Bugis. Finally i got my ears pierce. =) But it seems much more pain then last time. And the person put so much solution on my ear that it made my neck so wet. (-_-)" Fen bought a lot of things cause she just got her pay. But seeing her spending like that, the money will be gone soon.

Thursday - Didn't went out. Was mugging at home watching Goong. Haha. watch it on youtube, it will be better if bro bought the VCDs. =D He said he was going to buy, lets see if its true.

Friday - Was waken by PW's call. I was still in my lalala land lor. (-_-) Went to eat lunch with fen and PW at ChongPang's mac. Saw my ex-classmate working there. He even said he is promoted to manager. Pro right? He said he is working part-time but doesn't he need to study in the day? The time at that moment was about 2pm and he study at nanyang JC?! Did he skip school? O_O After that fen went to buy her contact lens. I feel like changing to contact lens too but the thought of putting something in my eyes turns me off. By the way, its friday the 13th, unlucky day. We wanted to board the bus to SSC but when we reach the bus-stop, the bus just drove off. =( No choice, waited for the next bus. Both of them told me how unlucky they were that day. (>_<) It seems like the curse of bad luck has fallen on them. Haiz. Cheer up my girls. Walk one round in SSC and went out. Saw the bus to Sunplaza and board it. Walk around, fen saw a slipper she like but don't have the size she wants. sad* I can hear the unlucky charm ringing again. Nothing much happens after that.

Saturday - Was at home the whole day again but not alone. Slacking and watching tv. The jacky wu's GUESS show was damn nice. Seeing all those small little kids dancing like a pro makes me so jealous of their talents. (>_<) One of them was a boy who dances hip-hop just like an adult! Was attracted to him just like Rainie Yang. =D Loves him~!!! I wish i had a child like him when i grow up. xD

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Hmm... what did i do for the past few days...
Friday - Went shopping a little. At night went out to play. It was fun but hot. =)
Saturday - Basically it is just any other day at home. Nothing to talk about.
Sunday - It's Dad's birthday but didn't quite celebrate though. =/
Monday & Tuesday - I don't know what i was doing. Seems like these 2 days didn't exist at all. =X

So, to conclude, i am a no life girl. (-_-) Tml going to pierce my ears again. Hope it does not end up like last time, if not i am not going to pierce anymore. =( Somehow i am having a communication break down with everyone except my mum and bro. I don't know how to face my relatives & friends. Since when did my life become so miserable. I don't know. I only know i am not the girl i used to be anymore.

I seem to be like this kitten, so sad looking...

Sometimes i want to move forward, but i find myself not moving at all. I am still standing on the same stone cause i can't see any stone ahead me. Sometimes i need a shoulder to cry on but i found none cause i am alone...

Lalalala...

This sem break seems so long, as if half a year has past. I feel like school start earlier better but thinking of all the stress i am gonna go through, its better this way now. =) I am so bored, so BORED!!! Haiz. I am sleeping all day. I feel like a pig now. x( Daddy said he wanna go abroad work. But me and mummy opposed strongly. Daddy still insist that what's wrong with going abroad to work. And we tell him that his health problem,money problem and lifestyle are just not compatible with the Aussy. And still he had lots of his reasons to go. He want to earn many many money. You know what is bu fang xin? I don't know why he want to go there work so much. Half a year come back once only. And his zhu peng gou you gonna accompany him. Obviously, they will teach him bad things de. My daddy is just like a small boy now. He say that he already agreed with his friend le. So now what?!! What for discussing with us when you had agreed to go? I don't know him la! He want go then go, i don't care much le. He is already 'old' le, still can't think clearly meh. Mummy said ask grandma see if she allows. So, in the end i still don't know what would happen. =/

monday blues O_o

Oh ya, bro went to malaca today. I am alone at home again. Pw got into jap too. Haiz, so many people got into jap but me. =( Suddenly felt abit sad la. But i am okay now. =) Mooncake festival coming soon and i going out that day to play. =D Hope nothing blocks my path to having fun. I am starting to think about all the flavours of mooncakes. =p *Yum Yum* And i am so looking forward for the show "Goong". Heard that it is super nice. =)

I wish.. i wish.. i wish that i am a freaking rich girl, so that i can buy all the things i like. But... i am NOT. =/ But then, not rich people can have not rich people kind of fun. =D Hahas. I don't know what am i typing now. I just post for the sake of updating my blog. =x Heez. Bye Bye.

am i still here?

Why can't i live in dreams, in fairytales, or just any place where only happiness stays. Why do humans have 'feelings'? Why must god makes life to have moments which are bad? I want to be happy every moment, every second, even though i am content with everything now. Say i am greedy or what, i don't care. At least i face myself, and know what i want.

Don't care the above paragragh, it sounds so emo right? Nah~ i am not emo nor am i sad or what. I am just wondering about so many things in life, the people that i met in my life. Every little thing may change our path.

Anyway, thanks mummy for giving me the ability to see so many beautiful things and people. =)

xP

Edit the blogskin a bit, loves the background. x) Friday was meant to be going out with my 2 girls but fen suddenly told me she had to work!? She is just so lucky that the thai fair need people. (>.<) But its okay, me and pw went to bugis to find her. She was selling soya milk, it was nice. =) After having our lunch, we went around shopping but we can't buy much things. We are poor students, you see. The 3 of us got a big head turtle hanging on our phones. xD I think it's cute. We finished shopping in lest then 3 hrs. Nothing much to see, but both of us got a top and bottom. Went to sit at the bench outside the cinema and slack there. Actually we could go home but the time is still so early, and both of us doesn't want to go home yet. It weird, we never slack when we go out. Guess really nothing interested us. =/ The more we slack, the more we feel tired. (-_-) So we went home at about 6 plus. Meet mum and went to eat dinner. Feeling so tired the whole day.

Today nothing much going on either. Help mum do her nails. At night went to grandma's house. Grandma went for eye operation and now she can see things more clearly. =D She can't bend down now or dunno what thing will drop out from her eyes?! O_O I am not too sure either.

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Left about 2 weeks before school reopen. Get in the thinking skills module. I wonder if this sem modules are difficult? O_o I hope its not cause my friend got a GPA of 3.9+. Amazing hur? There's no doubt, he's smart. Exchange lecture notes with him a few days ago, hope there's no new edition of lectures notes. =) Fen is BACK! Heez~ So happy that she finally returns. And we could go out on friday! Cause theres power supply cut off that day. (=_=) Last thursday happened the same thing too. I, of cause went out, while my bro stayed at home. He is superb la. Play Ps2 for the whole night and slept on the floor from morning till afternoon, without electricity from 8:30am-5:00pm. He can tahan without electricity, i can't. And the workers are so damn noisy, i wonder how he sleep too. Bro is going malaca on 2 Oct, haiz, no one arguing with me anymore. =( But the house would be peaceful without him. =x

depress?

Got back my result. Initially thought my result was not bad. But 1 by 1 i went to ask my friends theirs result, i got more and more disappointed. They got higher points then me. (-_-) Its weird why didn't they ask me why i got lower then them. Anyway, the main reason is i have become a slacker, REAL slacker. The truth is i didn't put much effort in this semester. I am still in the holiday mood. Who can i blame? Myself. No use crying over spilt milk now. I couldn't bring myself to ask even more people their result. I don't want myself to get in a depression mode. Seriously, i hate the way i live now. I wish no one comes to disturb me. I wish no one fight or argue over small small things. I wish all my poly friends are happy, including those secondary school's friends. I wish this world have peace forever. I wish so much but all this are just wishes. I couldn't make all this wishes come true myself. I have not enough power to do so. I wish things can go back way before i was 8. Because the chinese teacher change my life when i was pri2. I used to be so talkative in class, used to be quite active in class. But now? What have i become? Ingoing...Quiet... All this sux man. My fate, my life change because of that fuking teacher. I hate her! I hate this world! I hate myself more for not able to be that cheerful girl again. What a 'life'?! I hope all this could end soon... =(

Ememy : ANTS!!!

Congrats! The ants have officially invaded my home. (-_-)" In total, there are 3 different types of ants. One, the small little red ants. Two, the medium size black ants which crawl very fast. Three, the medium size red ants. The second one just move into our house for 1 month. xp Let me tell you their locations.

First, the little red ants. They hide in a very thin gap somewhere in the kitchen. They like to go to the kettle and drink water?! I am wondering why they like the plain water so much too. O_o Sometimes i even saw them holding hands in hands floating on the surface of the water, and there were many of them. Next, they like to chew on my tibits and biscuits. x( So i hide all my food in air-tight containers. Wahaha. I am smart ya?

Next on the list is the medium size black ants. They crawl really fast but they have no sense of direction. (-_-) They are everywhere in the house. And there is a trail of them from don't know where crawling to the kitchen then the living room then my parents bedroom. Until today then i know they had a base in the metal of the bathroom's door. So goes the pesticide spraying into the metal. Heehee. So many of them dropped down on the bathroom's floor. And swosh they go to the drain. I wonder if they had other bases? =/

Last is the medium RED ANTS! I hate this the most! They like to chew on the clothes, whether it is washed or unwashed. Yucks yucks* And they like hanging around the dustbin at the kitchen. Cause there's always "food" in there. And they somehow likes maggie mee too. Haha. I mean those uncooked mee. They bite their way into the packet and i don't know how they chew also, cause uncooked mee is hard.

The black ants are easy to kill, while the red ants are quite strong. Keep on pressing and pressing but they are just half-dead. (-_-) [Note: Touching the ants is not my job xp]

Okok enough of my Ant's Battle. I am tired now...Good nightz =)

money???

The ice-cream job was not suitable for me i guess. Had an 'orientation' on the job, but the ice-cream was damn hard to sell. So many people didn't want to buy WALLS ice-cream cause it was a bit expensive. It was a no-pay 'orientation', so the day was wasted away. Haiz. Now have to depend on the agency le. Just feel so hopeless with myself, can't even find a job. (-_-) Maybe i just can't be fussy about job. Seriously want a job so much. For the past 16 years, i have never work before. Pathetic eh? Everyone as in most of the poeple will find job after they end their secondary school life right? Me? I wasted the 5 months having fun. Hopeless girl i can say. =X Didn't help the family in contributing money but keep on spending money which are from my parents. *sad* Is it meant to be that i can't get any job this sem break? Give me the finding job luck please.

yoz...

Yo~ i am back after 1 month. (^_^) Hmm.. so today went job hunting. Not much hope in those companies. Haiz..in the end call the WALLS ice-cream. Peiwen said she got a flyer from dunno where, which says need part-time teenagers to sell ice-cream. The time is at night 4 hrs, think its quite good. Still waiting for the person-in-charge to send the details back. =) Hope we get the jobs.

Went bugis walked around, nothing much catch my eyes except a wallet at Wallet Shop. It say it could glow in the dark, quite special right? Like that i can find my wallet in the dark. =x Haha no link right.

Just receive the news that the crocodile hunter, Steve Irwin, died today on the 4th of Septeber, on the Batt Reef, pierced by a stingray barb through his near Cairns. Humm.. felt a bit sad cause sometimes i got watch his programs. He was such a brave person, as in he was not scared of the fierce creatures. Well, lets put a turtle (tu) in front of our msn nick as a sign of respect then.

dead me x(

This blog is so dead~ Bet no one is looking. Anyway i am not blogging too much, so why not i just close this blog, right? Maybe not close, but just hibernate it.
My common test is about 4 days away, gotta study hard for it. Don't know if i can score well. Don't put too much hope on me cause i will get everyone disappointed like the O'levels. I really have no idea why i become lke this. Is this really what i want? Or am i just going on a wrong way all along? I dunno. I just feel that i am so outcast, so left out, so many emotions mixed together and i dunno wad to do. I hate the present me, hate my life, hate my existance. Why must i be born out? Can't i just stay in a unknown dimension with no feelings, any world other than earth. All right, all right, i know i am talking craps here. Anyway no one will be seeing, if there is, don't continue if you think is boring. What if i shout "Hello~!!! Anyone here???", will anybody reply? O_o Well if there is maybe i shall not hibernate. If not, this blog is going to the freezer and get frozen there.

emotions everywhere~~

Today is a happy day, although it starts with a not so good beginning. From the morning i woke up till now my waist is aching like hell. Maybe because of the past few days never sleep well enough. Next, i washed up and change clothes, the moment i step into my parent's bedroom i smell something disgust. I know my papa go drinking again..haiz. And of cause he vomit la. At first he reluctant to drive me to school but i keep on pestering him till he no choice. =D Then suddenly he found out that his $400 missing! OMG~ He say dunno is mama take never say or really gone. I was like so 'moody'? for the whole day cause i keep on thinking about the $400. Call mama also never answer. Then bro say she left her phone at home. (-_-)"
And some galz problem was solved! Love it when anything is wrong we solve it quickly so as to avoid hurting our friendship. =) Then again the usual place, we went to the basketball court to spent our 4hrs break. The galz brought food there to picnic. Heez. After that slacking times again, have to wait for the time to pass. And the grahic design lesson is really boring, i think no one is listening lor. Then i show shreen the blog with her shuai ge in it. She was so happy lor. Haha her mood become so high man. x)
Tml going out with the galz to compass point to eat breakfast. =) Seriously, i have never been to there before. So scared i lost sia. But nvm if lost call them to help me...haha..
Oh ya about the wedding dinner i say in the last post, there were 3 tables empty on the wedding day and cannot be refund, it will reserve for u until u come and eat. So we get to go there on sat or sun, sit there and eat the same food again. But the food sucks lor, (-_-) but nvm la better then nothing. I love the scenery there, so beautiful can. But 1 sad thing about the couple which i dunno during the wedding, is that the guy involve in some 'laws' problem and the gal is left alone without him. Don't know how to describe but it is sad la.
And back to the $400. It was mum who took it but she took $350 only. She left $50 for my dad. Haiz..felt relieved now.
*Yawns* Gotta go sleep now, tml still need to wake up early. Nitez~ *****

Sad??

It has been a long time since the last post. I will try to recall what happen recently. Hmm... attend my cousin wedding on the 23th. The place was at harbour front, very nice and beautiful scenery. Oh ya before reaching, we found a phone on the bus! Lucky hur? =D Daddy is using it right now. Oh right, monday suppose to be my presentation but because of too many people, i was being pospone to next week. So sad, have to bring my formal clothes again next week. Then this whole week was fun. The class is so united. We started to get along better and better, and all this happen in the basketball court, lectures and labs. Really love my class! Hope next semester no one repeat module. Can see that all of them are quite hardworking now. =) Just wanna stay like this forever.

But adding on to it, sometimes i feel so lonely. Maybe its me thinking too much again but i really wish there is a someone to protect me, to care for me, to talk to me. And i don't like quietness, but i don't know how to break this barrier. I wonder why am i born like this, why do i exist? For who i am in this world? I want the answer to all this Qns that have been going round in my mind for a long time but who will give me the answers? I can only pray for a miracle...

Boring again__

This is already week 12 of my poly life. June passed by real fast. I wonder why my course doesn't have common test on wk11. =/ But thats good, doesn't need to get myself so stressed up. After all, all the Quiz and Test i took were quite easy. Just that the projects are bordering me. Left 3 projects to do, haiz, hope i can finish them before wk15(dateline).
Currently watching the vcds from fen, the starting is quite nice so i will continue to watch.

Saturday going out to buy my formal clothes, have to use for wk15. Maybe buying a formal coat, inside just wear a normal top. Cash problem right now, hope the GSS could really pull down the price. The match on Germany VS Italy was really unpredictable. Most of my friends thought Germany is going to win but it was the the extra time that help Italy.

stress out-

Sch starts at 3 today and there is a test on programming later. I am gonna fail this test man. I totally could not understand a bit of what the teacher is saying. Or maybe just a little bit. Stress out for the whole last night. Kept on trying to absorb as much as i can last night but i just get myself even more confused. (=_=) Tingting msg me in the morning she is not going sch today cause of high fever. Oh god, lost 1 person who could help me. Really don't feel like going sch today. Feel so 'emo' these few days and dunno the reason why. Guess i still haven adapt to this poly life hur? The truth is i miss my old buddies very much, just hope i could go back in the past. I know everyone say this when they felt their lives are not going well but seriously, my past was better than present. Now i can only pray for a miracle.

emo?

Have no idea what's wrong with me nowadays. Can be happy at a time and suddenly turns gloom at another time. School is still fine except some classmate problems.Haiz. Time pass by really fast for last week, think mainly because went to school for only 3 days. Felt so left out the past few days, i dunno the reason but it's just that kind of feeling.Maybe i am thinking too much.

Everytime i told myself i wanna change, i didn't. I don't wish to be the 'me' now. Not feeling like a sagittarius which suppose to be active,playful,adventurous and blah..blah..blah... Quiet?Soft spoken?Innocent?Gloomy face? Thats not what my heart wish to go and not what i want to be. If only i have the answer to everything around me.

complicated me

Haven post for quite some time, lots of things happened. School starts last month, and everything is going smoothly. Got into a quite chatty class. Should i consider myself fortunate? Well~ at least its not gonna be bored for the 3 years.

Something i don't wish to happens,happened. Grandpa passed away. Didn't go school for the past 3 schooling days. Been holding back my tears till today, getting very emotional. Was thinking whether to go school tml, and the answer is no. Even though my fren said i would miss a lot of things, i think i can't concentrate if i go. Tml going with my family to go collect grandpa's ash. I guess the best people that i know are my family...

ordinary day

Friday went for the class BBQ, overall it was good. Except the starting where we had to find that BBQ pit. Walk under the big hot sun, still had to find what tunnel what blocks before reaching that place. The blocks are not in numerical order so we walk one big round and came back to the bus stop we had alight. (-_-)" But eventually we reach that place, and the guys reach there before us even if we left earlier cause they took cab. Then prepare the BBQ pit and started BBQing. Guess only our pit was on smoke that time cause it's only 3pm. After a while the dustbin was on FIRE! LOL! I wonder how it got fire. Put it off and it started again and it repeat for like 3-4 times before it really put off. And time passes really fast, its night time and got to go home. Took cab home while most of the guys went watching midnight show. Tired~ recommend a more cooler place for next gathering if possible.

Nth much more happen this few days. Sunday went to visit ah gong, he become thinner again and he looks weaker to me. =( Sad to see healthy ah gong become so weak. I just hope he gets better if possible. Things are just hard to predict and fate just play around with our lives. Haizz...

Wed going far east to get that bag and also got to buy my top-up card. My phone left about $2 only. Feel that this month i spent a lot, have to save money orelse really broke le. Yesterday while bathing saw a milipede in the bathroom. Scared the hell out of me. Everyone was asleep so i could tell no one. But luckily it crawls off and i don't know where it went. And there's a beetle too. Argh~ why are there so much insects in my house!?

joyfulness in me =)

Yesterday was pw birthday. We bought a watch for her, hope she really likes it and don't spoilt the watch again. Went to marina square to walk. The environment is beautiful even the fastfood restaurants are built so nicely. Had lunch at kfc but was not enjoying the food. Bought the popcorn chicken meal and ask for more chili sauce but she replied, "Urm sorry our chili sauce is limited cause it is out of stocks." Ok so everyone get 1 packet of chili only. Squeeze the chili, dip the chicken and bite it. Aww~ the chicken is a bit hard, feel like chewing rubber. Then walk around and nothing much to see. Therefore we went suntec to look around. The moment we stepped in a perfume smell filled the place. After we walk quite a distance from there we still smell it strongly. Fen said that guy was spraying the perfume like it is free, kept on spraying. (-__-) Shop around and bought a jacket at this fashion, which i think is quite nice. Then suddenly thought of fen need to buy her mum's birthday present. Totally forget about it till pw remind. Look here look there and bought a bag at espirit. The bag was expensive even though was share by 2 persons. After that went home cause pw's family wanted to celebrate her birthday too.

Came to know that another classmate is with the same course as me. I don't want to be in the same class as him if possible. Not because i dislikes him or what but just feel that it will be peaceful without him. =x

Friday going bbq with my 2005 classmates at east coast. Hope it will be an enjoyable day.

an ordinary day

Just a normal day where i sink into my pillow and stare at the ceiling.

Went to look for lifen's present today. Look everywhere around Junction8 but couldn't find a perfect present for her. Then pw suggested buying a bag, so we went looking at all those bags. Hmm..no nice one. Actually fen has everything, so it is hard to buy present for her. =/ Then went to perlini silver cause fen likes the necklaces there. Look around and decides on the pendant which has 3 different keys hanging on it. I wonder if fen would say it symbolises CPF (-_-) Then went on choosing the necklace strip. Saw one quite special so decide to buy that. Total price i shall not say but it's share among 5 persons. =) And so, i am broke. 1 week later have to buy pw present.

This morning went to check my posting result. Well~ didn't get into business informatic but into multimedia & inforcomm. I think it's not bad, right? Went asking around and most of our classmates are in nyp too ^^ Think will be seeing them around nyp quite often cause engineering and IT and chemical schools are quite near. But leng and fen got into business management. Cheers for them for getting in! Thats a good course i would have choose that if my result are good enough. Haiz don't talk about the result. Now it is about a different environment and gotta really work hard to show them i can do it! Urm.. i hope.

CNY?!!? no feeling of having new year

I am back posting again (: Went bugis today to shop for my clothes. Look everywhere and just end up buying a top at this fashion. =/ Not in the mood to buy clothes, kind of gettting boring of CNY. Fen told me she is not going anywhere on first day of new year cause her relatives going genting. I was thinking they just want to save the ang bao money. =x Then i told her if the second day of new year i am not going anywhere, i would go her house[play mahjong>.<] Oh ya~ i also saw one of the campus superstar contestants, the nerd guy with spec [adriano]. Well~ he is about the same height as me, but i think he still can 'grow' right? opps~ no offence* But he is kind of cute and cool. haha. My legs are so pain and numb from all the walking. Gona sleep soon~