CRASH!

One more week to common tests! I can die soon. Why does time passed by so fast? I still have so much projects to do even though it seems that i had already submit a lot of reports. I'm so looking forward for the two weeks break but now it doesn't seems so. The pace for every semster just got faster and faster. And i went to look at the school reopen date for next half semster, it says 31 dec??!!! That's the first time i ever came across school starting in last day of the year. Anyway for the time moment i still have to mug for the 200 questions for WDD and 30+ questions for IP. Madness!

There are so many things which i think i had already forgotten and wouldn't care so much. But when time takes me back to that moment, i can't deny that i am still confused. I guess i can't know what's the feeling until i experienced it. I hope i won't hang at this kind of moment for long.

school? like NOT!

Currently listening: Wilber Pan - 说你爱我
When i just wish to be alone sometimes, why do i get more attention? Life is not smooth. My WPDP is ruined. My EC test tml is not going to be any better. My tons of projects are gone case too. There's just not a bit of liking to school. Everyday my steps to school just got heavier and heavier. It's like i am tied with a super duper heavy rock, so tiring. Sometimes i just wish i could throw this burden away. But i know if i did, i would be a gone case. It seems that 24hours are not enough for me for a day. I am craving for more time. This semester is a disaster. Anyone could have killed by it. Would i be the next victim?

i need some time alone. Give me time.

boring boring~

School is boring again! No mood to start my WDWP project. Tuesday went to celebrate AP birthday. It was fun. Next target would be TT. Haha. =D And the movie The Seeker was good, at least it did not bored me. And Stardust was great too! =D And lalala..i don't know what to blog. I want renovate my house. I want new furnitures. I want new computer. I want new phone. So many things that i want but when can they be fulfilled? The weather is getting cold nowadays. Seems that everyday has to rain at least one time. K, thats all, school's com is very lousy.

Saw on the news that two boys were smash by the trian while relaxing on the railway. There were some other friends around at that time. Can't imagine if i were at the scene, so bloody. I would have faint if i saw the accident happen. And i suddenly remember my last post's quote. There, i know the answer. But if it is me, i would have relax on an old railway which no trian pass by.

School is getting boring each day. Some lecturers just cannot make it. And two weeks just gone like that. Nothing has been done on those projects. Started playing Audition two days ago. Been hearing some friends playing it but have not really try out since last two days.

Oh and mummy's birthday is tml. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY!!! =D There's so many birthday peeps at year end. Pocket gonna get a hole soon. Haha.

where can i find you? when would you appear?

weekTWO

It's already the second week of school. And there's assignments to be hand in by week3. And lots more projects and mini projects to be done. But there's no motivation to do anything now. The study mood won't be back till the last minute. This is absolutely bad cause this sem is so rush. Plus the weather season at this period, all i could feel is tiredness and laziness. Ah~ i don't know what to blog. School life is so boring and uninteresting.

relaxing on a railway. what is the consequence?

A long day

School started 3days ago. Everything seems fine to me except for those assignments and mini projects datedue are so near. Like what pw said, now is just the honeymoon period. The only time when you could still enjoy your life the way you want. But after these, there's gonna be hell days for us. Anyway, after school today went bugis to shop around. There are sales everywhere around us. I dont know what season is now that makes everyone slashing the prices. Initially wanted to get a bigger and nicer bag for school but i don't know why i hesitated. It was a nice day with bestie. It has been a long time since we stay till so late outside. Having a 8am class tml which is today cause it's already 1+am. Argh~ my black circles gonna get darker and darker. And my eyes will get smaller and smaller, and i will get fatter and fatter, and uglier and..and...
Ahh~ i must be crazy to think all these things. Must be the clock in me that is causing all these. Been sleeping late for the past 1 month. How am i going to adapt to the timetable now?! And i hate spending money on expensive books again. I just remember i haven ask my friend about exchanging book. Forget it, i will ask tml. Damn tired now. To think we actually go in a department store to look for seats just now. Haha. =)

这一条路

我已经走得太累了。

我的脚步开始沉重 眼神涣散

我只想安静地躺着

然后听风在耳边嬉戏

然后沉沉睡去

天黑 会不会让我忘了你是谁

其实我只想忘记自己是谁

BACK!!!

I'm BACK!!! Change my layout but too many images, need some time to load. =X

Firstly, Happy Birthday to Daddy!!! =) Went Bottle Tree Village yesterday to celebrate cause bro had to book in camp yesterday. The prawn balls and fried tofu are nice. *yummy* It is located near the coast so the ambience was nice. And i already gave daddy his present few weeks ago cause i can't hide the present from him. Haha. And found out that their other outlet is at the fishing farm near Khatib mrt. The one that i always passed by but don't know what is the place. If you want know more can go to their website- http://www.bottletree.com.sg/

Anyway, it's less than a week before school starts. I really really don't wanna go school. All i know is that my life is going to change from heaven to hell. And i super duper HATE "com skill" this module. It sucks but i know everyone has to take this module, so i am not suffering alone. Haha.=D Hope this sem all the lecturers are nice people. K thats all for now. =)

away i go

I'm getting so tired of my life now. I don't know what makes everything seems bored to me. Sometimes i feel like struggling, sometimes i feel like i can enjoy everything. Maybe something is lagging in my life. Maybe it's just me being paranoid. Wait till i found it, this blog is going in hibernation.

free and away

It's OVER! Exam ended and so does this crazy semester. Freedom is the word to describe my feeling. I couldn't care for the results anymore cause i know it would drop. Just hope i won't repeat any module. And for this break, i have no plan. I just wish to work and enjoy. And recently i watched lots of movies online. Guess this is the best activity to do when you are bored at home. =) I slept 11hours on the first day of my holidays to mend for the past few days of struggling. Craving for lots of food recently, hope i won't get fat. =X

hiding away

Emptiness

I can't get myself to start studying. Can't get the mood right. I did take out the books and notes but i just stared at it. Time is running out. I have a bad feeling for this coming exams. I don't know what is this kind of feeling, but i know it's blocking me from studying. Why do i keep on having emotions which i don't know what it is. Nothing makes me feel right. Everyday i refuse to wake up from my bed. I wish i could just sleep and sleep cause this time i feel really tired. I like the sunshine that shines on me when i open my eyes. I like the morning breeze that blows through my windows. I like the bolster that i hug everynight. But i don't like the routines of my life after these. The colors on me are getting dull each day. Eventually, everything will turns black. And the world is so big, it's amazing how two strangers met. There's a stranger but it's impossible.

down

Tml is doom day. And i am 90% sure cause i just can't get the info store in my brain. Brain blockage. Nothing works now. It's not a test on knowlege, it's a test of memory. IS test is gonna be the worst ever cause i wasn't listening at the lectures except one or two. I think most people hate it too. I gonna try stuffing info in my brain again before going sleep. My eyes are holding back the tiredness. I feel so machine.

oh no.

1 August

It's hell today. NTP's presentation was soso only. IS lab test is gone. Accounting paper is gone. And there's RAD lecture and lab test tml!!! I can't make it, really. Someone with a sick brain like me, can't really memorize and think properly right now. And common tests are coming. Teach me how to survive in this world please.

[i know an apple per day keeps the doctor away. But right now, nothing helps.]

31July

I shall die tml. x( There's NTP presentation and Accounting test and the IS lab test which i am still unsure about. And right now, i still can't get all the formulas for accounting in my head. And the presentation, i don't know how well can i make it. That stupid lecturer ask us to put make up and wear formal. Why other lecturers didn't care about formal but this does? I hate formal. Argh~ i just wish this sem ends faster. I feel like a crazy student, always rushing for projects, tests and assignments. Lesser fun times, year three would be worst, am i right? And why does our course has so many modules? The animation project which i haven even start, is gonna die too. Now that i look at the paper more clearly, i find that it is harder than what i imagine it is. At first i have about 50% confident, but now it drops to 30%. I have no idea where should i start. Arrrr~ can i cry? (-_-)

[blow blow~ Blow my troubles away.]

crazy weeks!!!

1 more project down. 3 more to go. Animation,NTP and OOAD.
DDI quiz this wed.
Innovation lect and RAD lab make up this wed.
Animation test this friday.
IS makeup next wed.
Accounting common test next wed.
RAD tests next thursday.
Common test follow up and its exam.

Damn all these crazy schedule. Not a bit of time to breath. If only something can kill all these... O_o

Food!!! Yes, its food. Doesn't them look appealing? Haha. I need food for energy. =) Delicacy might give me more energy. =p

life cycle.

Another day, another thought of escaping from school but left with no choice. My head is like a thousand pounds. It's tiring to carry it around but i've got no choice too. I would die if my head is gone. =X And today is a cold weather, a weather nice for sleeping. I don't know what i have done today cause today's lessons are redundant. Went hub with AP after school. And it was like hell long ago since i last stepped into the arcade. Then went to have a bite and sit down to chat. After that went to meet mummy. Bought kfc for dinner. Sinful. I don't know why mummy suddenly have a craving for it but i will just go along with her. =) I think i gain quite a few pounds in just one day. =( It's time to plan to reduce my tummy and fats here and there. Hope i can. Morning class tomorrow, it's time for bed now. =)

dead beat.

Feeling so tired nowadays even though i did nothing. School is absolutely a boring place especially NYP. I don't meant to criticise my own school but the fact is a fact. I wish the next 1 and a half years could pass by quickly but yet i don't want to graduate. Confusing.

But at least there's still places where i've never been to.

Seems like there's never ending work to be done. I just need to hang on till August is over. My energy is losing bit by bit each day. I wish to close my eyes and never wake up to this world.

mood lost

为什么？为什么会有这种怪怪的感觉？我越来越搞不懂自己在想什么。The more i think that way, the more things become this way. My feeling now is so damn messy. I don't know why. Its just so complicated, so.... i don't know what word could descibe it. I wish i know what to do. Sigh. Nothing important anyway, just feeling moody. What if one day i escape to a place where no one finds me, what will the people around me feel? *roll eyes* But this is just assumption question, it won't happen. And i got so tired of going to school. It just turn me off and theres so many things to matter. And dream feel like coming true but i don't want it to be true. I rather it be a beautiful dream, it's sweeter this way. And there's OOAD test today. I study on the last minute. Wonder how will the result be. It's friday the 13th today but nothing bad happen. Should be glad hur? I just want the simplest thing on earth.

random

There's IS presentation and NTP test tomorrow. I so hope these 2 things can be done easily but it's not. Lets just pray and see. Everything is so tight and so little time. Sometimes i don't believe i'm already year2. I don't look like and absolutely don't feel like. Some genes in me still remain as a kid. I still want the kind of fun, that kind of smile as a kid. Maybe, i couldn't find back anymore. Maybe i was unsure but now i'm sure about some things. I don't want fate to control me, i wanna control my own life. Turning back and looking at the past is not the time now.

the craving becomes stronger...what should i do?

doubtful

Omg. I am having a bad feeling of my health. Feel like there's "fire" in me. I so hope i am not having fever and of cause not dengue. I found mosquito in my house few days ago. Can it be? I don't want to fall. I can't collaspe at a time like this. Counting down 4 more weeks before exams. I don't know where and how should i start revision. The mood just isn't right all the time.

school is a boring place.

Schooling days started. All the topics are so dry. Whenever i tried to concentrate, i start to feel sleepy. Damn. And today's night class, i dont know what kind of Z factor that makes me soooo tired when i stepped in the lab. The lecturer is bad at teaching stuffs. And i hate projects! All projects are sucky. Animation project, predict its gonna be badly done. Oh and OOAD mini project which i suddenly remembered, not started yet. Can someone chase away the stars flying round my head? And add on to the recent weird weather, health is deteriorating. Energy level has been dropping and dropping. By the end of this sem, i think i will be knock out(KO). I don't know what kind of feeling should i welcome the next sem. Maybe i dont even wanna welcome it. And i find that i get injuries from stupid stuffs. First is the opening of a stucked cap of a superglue. I knew it wouldn't come off but i force myself to open it. I peel my index finger and its painful. Next is removing of sim card from phone. I was helping my bro to change phone and i dont now why the card just wouldn't come out. And again, i force myself to push it out. There's some metal thing near it and i bleed again. (-_-) I feel so stupid. Why do i force things which i couldn't do? Sigh. Kay, i'm off to bed. Its pretty late now. There's still project session tml. Sweet dreams to me. =)

i hope my guesses are wrong.

when things all went wrong.

Lots of things happened in just these few days. Buddy met some irritating incident and bestie is at her darkest time now. i wish nothing goes on the dark side again. Although our fate has already decide where we are going but when things really happened, no one would wants it to happen. Some things are beyond our control but some things we can decide how it should go. I can't lie to myself. I have no mood to do anything now. If this common test is a gone case, i would just have to work hard for other sectors like exams and projects.

心情变得好低落，好低落哦。

时间啊时间，

你是否能停留在从前呢？

能不能带我回去快乐的时候？

zzzzzzzz

Countdown 1 week before i die. =X Digging my own grave now. When the time comes, i will just jump into it. (=_=)

I just can't stuff any info in my brain. It is so weak., maybe it's gonna faint soon. Just don't faint at an unknown place. Alright, projects are already near to completion. I just need to focus myself on studying now. But i am always finding excuse not to study. *sigh* And i want DBSK new album's songs! And also fang da tong's songs, and all the nice nice songs.

My brain cells are dying. I need support! =/

一点推动力都没有

叫我怎么读书啊

我的天使跑去哪了？

快来救这个迷失的女孩。。。

woah

Skin changed again! Replace my wuzun with the bears. And the pictures are all done by me. (>_<) Haha. Actually the bear pic was done long time ago but just didn't put up. The side pictures were done recently. The whole blog still looks incomplete somewhere. Hmm, will improve when i have time. Lalala~ today is project day and lalala~ i am fainting soon. So many things to do and there's common test 2 weeks later. Why don't the lecturers just killed me. I won't accused them of murdering. =X Who said Poly life is more relaxing than JC life? Bullshit. Its equally stress, OK? Just that we are doing more projects while they are doing more worksheets. Give me back my life, give me back the happy girl, give me back EVERYTHING! ROAR!!!

i miss my bro. =X

unsure...uncertain...

How long do i have to go? When was the last time i am alive? Why are there troubles and problems in this world? Why humans have feelings? There are so many questions in my mind, but once again, everything just went unanswered. But it's okay, i am numb already. It's mood swing disturbing my life again. Maybe there's someone out there, someone who is able to awaken me. How long have i been unconsicious in this world? I don't know. But one thing for sure, i don't want to live like this. I have a life, but i am living in a 'no life' way. I aren't treating my life preciously. Everything went blind before me. My life become mechanical, routines and more routines. Maybe once in a while there is some surprises. But in the end, everything just went back where they are. Where have everyone gone? What are they doing? What is their feeling now? Seems like i only wanna know about others. I left myself as a mystery. Mr Unknown, will you come rescue me?

tired~~~

I am so dead now. Went for shopping from afternoon but end up buying nothing. -_- Its 3+ am now and i still not in bed. Common test and projects' datelines are getting nearer. You will see my grave soon. *yawnz* Shall blog again when i have the mood.

*purely coincidence?*

woohoo~~haha

Wee~ i am on a great mood today cause it's bro's enlistment day! And also partly because i never go school today. Haha. Bad girl hur? I've got mood swing recently. Anyway woke up early in the morning to get everything ready. Had prata for breakfast and it was quite full for me. Next, cab to pasar ris interchange for the bus to terminal. Shipped to tekong island. Separate from bro and his friend who is going enlistment too. So the "family" went to look at all the facilities there. And there were clones everywhere! Haha. Every army guy looks the same to me. xp I saw girls in the platoon too. Next, there was some ceremony and off for FOOD! Meet up with bro and his friend during the lunch. The food capacity is huge and the food is not bad too. Didn't manage to finish all the food. Oh, and bro and his friend are together for the whole training cause they are in the same sector and their beds are side by side. Lucky them. Thats what we call brothers for life, right? Haha. =D And right now waiting for the first call bro is going to call back tonight. =)
* i feel like a little child today x) *

Everyone is growing up. So fast bro is in the army le. Does this means i have grown up too? And whenever the thought of what to do when i graduated, i get all these "????" popping out from my head.

酸甜苦辣。

我现在的生活是在哪个阶段呢？

I'm breaking down soon, real soon. I've been knowing things i shouldn't have to know, and don't know things which i should know. My life is totally messed up, wrong track and lifeless. I just don't what will happen next. My 'existence', can i lose this thing? Can i have no existence for just one time? Just like one anime i watched, i'm a flame, eventually i will fade out. And when the flame becomes dimmer and dimmer, my existence becomes lesser and lesser. When the day i fade out, no one will ever remember i exist before. There will be no such person in this world. Somehow i can't be optimistic anymore. I am on the dark side of everything, so dark that i couldn't see myself anymore. I am so tired, so weak to move on. I am racing against the time. The result? Hmm...most probably i will lost.

为什么人要有那么多情感？

为什么我的天空是灰的？

我的笑容到哪了？

感觉好孤单又好像不是。

连我的梦都变得好奇怪。

我到底要什么？

我是谁？

sickness again!

"I am in a gonna shop then drop, then shop some more kind of mood." quote from metro. Thats what i am feeling now cause GSS is here! Weee~ lets shop one last time before the gst rises. =D But right now i am down with flu. And i don't know why i keep on tearing? O_o Is it because of my flu? It can't be flowing upwards right? (-__-) Anyway, there's so many projects on hand now. And the common test week is getting nearer. And my sixth sense tells me that i am not going to do well this semester. Seriously, i don't quite like this sem modules. Everything is just so boring with all those codes and commands everywhere. Memory skill is so impt. I don't think i learn anything but just forcing myself to remember the things. And my health. It seems like i am getting so weak nowadays. I find myself to be acting so slowly, like an old woman. My dark circles are showing on my eyes again. (=_=) Sigh*

真的好讨厌现在的我哦，要是时光能倒流该多好。

想做什么，就做什么。

别等后悔了才失望，因为那时候已经太迟了。

好好珍惜每一秒，过得幸福快乐才是人生的目标。=）

家人，朋友，陌生人，我都希望每个人是快乐的。

不是在敷衍，不是在做作，只是渴望那么一天。

sucky monday

What should i post? I dont know. I hate every single thing now. I hate the kind of unexplainable(is there such word?) relationship with my classmates. I hate myself for not changing even if it is already year2. I hate myself for being suspicious of having financial problem. The fact is i dont know the truth. My brain isn't working at all but the brain cells are dying each day. How long does it takes for all the cells to die? How long does it takes for me to evaporate from this world? If i can, i wish to be MIA, a real MIA. An escape from this world of mine. Or should i say, away from this country,Singapore. The life here is making people not able to think purely, clearly, simply. Hah. I dont know why i am typing this post. Actually there is nothing big happens today, but my emotions are being messed up. Whats causing me to be so 'emo'? Everytime i am reaching school, i had a weird, cant be explain kind of feeling. Its like i am out of my breadth. It seems like i am back to my sec4. The feeling is the same, hate to go school. Theres just things which i dont wish to tell anybody, at least i dont wanna tell face to face. I am hating NYP more each day. I envious my bro of his poly life. At least his was more smooth sailing than mine. Maybe from the start i got everything wrong. I cant turn back anything now. My entrance had closed, whats left is the Exit door. I will just walk slowly and carefully towards it then. I dont want any thorns to hurt me.

sunday blues

Its Sunday today! Hah, obviously it's sunday. (-_-) I am having Sunday blues now cause i know i will be having monday blues tomorrow. Get it? And i think there's some network quiz tml. =( But glad that it is MCQ. =) And there's night class tml. =( But glad that Tuesday is a no school day. =) So, should i be happy or not, about my life now??? Oh, and my appeal for module didn't went through. That means i have to face that old monster for this whole semester. *doom* And there's one more thing. I hate it when the campus is crowded with people. Seems like there is just so many year 1 students. Squeezing here and there. Break time is the worst time. Have to walk over to North Canteen to eat as South Canteen is flooded with people. Mac's long queue also turns me off. And the damn Food Junction is under renovation to Koufu. (-_-)" Nightmare year. K, enough of this damn school life. Hate it.
And i wanna slim down!!! Seriously, i am getting more and more fats on my body. I dont wanna be a fatty girl. =( Noooooo~ i will not let it happen. Got to shake off all this fats by this semester. Hope i can.

sucky days...

Haven been blogging much cause school is just so damn boring. Sucky modules, sucky lecturers and sucky weather. All these made a gloomy cloud on top of me. =( I don't know whether my classmates are happy but for me, i don't feel a bit of 'joy'? I don't know why too. Maybe cause my holiday mood's not over yet. Yesterday went for badminton with elaine and aiping. Just excercise for about 1 hour and got myself pain everywhere. I can't even brush my teeth properly this morning. My hand is so pain. Back and waist area too. =( This is the effect of not excercising regularly. (-_-) And so fast it's already the 2nd wk of this sem. Felt that nothing is done this 2weeks. Haiz. And my mind is still stuff with rubbish things. Somehow missing the old me. I don't know why. Let these kind of days gone soon.

woah~~

Finally i finish my skin, but still not quite satisfied. This skin is so random, so personal? Hee. =) School starting soon. Next week gonna go buy books le. This holiday there's lots of things going on. But i am lazy to spell everything out. =X

scream!!!!!

ARRR~ I think i just saw something which i don't want to see. Digusting things. Maybe i just couldn't accept the facts that there are this kind of people around. Post these kind of things on their blogs. Eww~ Luckily they are not in Singapore. =X Among all only 1 seems normal to me. Shall not write about them anymore.
Anyway, i think i am going to change my blogskin soon, provided i got the idea to create one. I think the pictures are a bit weird the more i see. My photoshop skill is so nooby, or should i say i lack of creativity. Hmm, must think of things that are fresh and new. But sad to say, my creative-ness has its limit. Results out. Quite satisfied with my results but unhappy with my complementary module. I send a request form to opt to another module. Hope it's successful. =)
Oh ya, bro left and he got his hotel too. Felt a bit lonely without him. No one to crap with me. No one to nag at me in the night when i don't sleep. And the house seems dull. =( Damn. Am i missing my bro??? Nah~ actually i am envious of him to go vacation with his buddies. =/ Haiz, lets just wait. I am eager to know what he will bring back to us.
Time now - 3.09am. I think i am becoming an owl soon. I don't know since when i can't have early sleep anymore. I slept late in the night. Nono, should be early in the morning. I dreamed of wonderful things but when i woke up i forget everything. I only know it's wonderful. There are bad dreams too but i forget too. Maybe you ask me several days ago, i could still remember. I only remember dreams which are deep impression.
Alright enough of this post, a bit sleepy now. Try to go to my lalaland soon. =)
BYE.

woolalala

Bro is leaving for taiwan soon! But one bad news is they haven got themselves a hotel to stay!!! How bad could it be. They have no where to stay when reach Taipei?!? (-_-) And heard from bro their agent is finding for them but sucking our(i mean them) money too. Bad agent. Boo~ for them. Haiz. Seriously, i want go taipei too but no one to go with. It seems so much fun there then singapore. =/ I am getting bored in Singapore already. So small,so warm and so many people. And i wish to go Thailand too! It seems fun there too. Must find a vacation and ask fen to bring me there, and of cause my wen, jenni and wendy and all my friends if can. x) Wahaha. I am thinking too much hur? =X But i really want a beautiful vacation with my friends. Will it ever happens?

a strange world

Ever since i came to poly, i find that i am always living in a strange world. In fact, a dark and scary world without light or even a beam of light. I said to myself,"Could i survive in here? Am i strong enough to take this path?" Questions and more questions pop out. I saw things which i never seen before. I experienced things which i never experience before. Even though i have friends around me, i feel lonely sometimes. It's not their fault though. It's them who created a fire, a fire that i could use to continue my path. I thanked God for giving them to me. =) And i am sure i could use that fire if they are walking the same path as me. If there is a moment where they need to walk other path, i would not be scared now. Cause i know there is a bigger fire behind me, my family and my besties. For now, my world is consider brighten up, but i am not sure when it will turns dark again. If it happens, i might have to use the stars to guide me through. Gotta sleep now. Sweet dreams everyone. =)

laaaaaaaaaala

Yesterday was peiwen's birthday. Went out quite late but we had fun la. Lazy to elaborate. Saw N73(music) for $299 student's plan but mum and bro don't allow. =( K lor, just have to use this phone for now. So don't ask me why never change phone.
Haiz, don't know since when this kind of fear started. I don't know what i am fearing of but i know i am fearing of something. Something which may change my life or something i never want to go through. Sounds so complicated. I can't really describe.

thursday's loneliness

Recently watch a movie call "NANA" on youtube, quite nice. Went to look for the anime but the people were not drawn so nice, so i prefer the movie. Here are some of the songs by Yuna Ito, some of it are in the movie too. =) Press the 'Stop' button to stop my background song so you can listen.








Heez, nice? Anyway, exams are over since last week. HOLIDAYS IS HERE!!! Whoo~ I can do what ever i want. =D Bro is going Taipei on 21st. I wish i could go with him too. =( But all his friends are guys, the girls are those whom i am not familiar with, and i have no money$$$. =(
I NEED JOBS! But i never work before, don't know should find what type of job. Haiz, pathetic me, so old le still never work before. I am being pampered so much. =X Nono, i can't stay at home like this. I have to go out and find jobs. But this kind of 'finding job' spirit doesn't last long. =/ How how how? Oh ya, fen's birthday just over. Hope she loves the present we gave her. =) And..and...everyone is like changing phone already but i have no money to change. (-_-) I love N73 and N93. Anyone care to buy for me? =X

back to the past______

Till then, please wait. I am trying to put myself in the right mode. I am digging the info of what i am in the past. Some things are coming back to me again but it isn't going to be the same. No words could describe this feeling. I need to create another path for me to walk. Time is what i yearn for now. God, let everything slow down, i will be grateful.

lalalalalal~~~

Wee~ exams getting nearer and nearer. (-_-) I am going to die on my table on monday. Have not been studying for the past 1 week plus. I don't know what i have been doing. I did went to have a look at the notes but nothing went in. And i meant it, nothing. Gone case. Left 3 days before that day comes, and i haven prepare anything. I am NOT a good student like what others see me. I AM NOT! So don't make assumptions before you know me well.
About new year, it's as boring as usual. "Happy New Year"? Nah, so strike off the "Happy" in front. That will make it a fact. I am not sure whether is me thinking too much or it's true. It seems that the atmosphere of Chinese new year is decreasing every year. Look at the streets, people buy New year's stuff for the sake of buying. Buy new clothes for the sake of buying. Actually we are buying new clothes even it is not New Year. Going relatives' houses to bai nian is actually the one i am looking forward to but this year just seems so strange. Should i say no mood at all? I don't know.
Anyway 2007 isn't going to be a good year for me. And i am acting so weird lately. Like i want to go my friend's house but i didn't go. My classmate just ask me a question and i am not replying her. I am not even replying msn. OMG, i don't know what i am doing. An unknown stress keep on following me. I hate it. It is pushing me down and down, feel like i had difficulty breathing. My sixth sense tell me this year is going to be bad luck all the way. Saw a girl's blog, think of changing course like her but my cooking skill sucks. Cannot follow like her to go shatec or sunrice. I also don't know what this course will lead me to, what jobs can i take when i graduate. To tell the truth, this course does not specialise in anything, no one would eager to employ me. I see no hope in my future. Regret of choosing this, but glad that i met good friends here. Haiz, i want all this to end soon.

ooh la la~

Wed went out with my polymates for Valentines. First we went to watch Miss Potter. Not a very good movie. Kind of boring and i don't like this kind of story. Next i forget what we did, then we go to the lan shop for mapling. Hehe. After that aiping need to go, so we exchange our gifts. Elaine gave us choco cookies made by her sis and her. So sweet of her. x) TT gave us chocolates and aiping gives us sweets. What i gave them? Handkerchiefs! Haha. It's those nice nice ones ok, not that kind of market ones. Hmm...meet shreen after that. She was wearing so 'formal', like going for some wedding dinner or high class restaurant. Walked from douby ghout to orchard. The ladies were having blisters all over the heels. Luckily i wear flat shoes. Hehe. They were looking for plaster at heeren's mini toons, but they only need a few pieces of it so the sales girl offered to give us free from her own wallet. So nice of her. And we went to mcCafe to slack there cause everyone was tired already. Chat and laugh at there, lots of things for us to talk about. Then it was home time. All i could say is tired day. =)

Thurs went out with fen for her new year's shoes. Went to orchard to look for it. But return with nothing from there. So we went to bugis. I saw none that attract me except one which cost $99! And of cause i only can look but not buy. Fen saw a pair she liked too but it cost $30++, kind of expensive too. In the end she didn't bought anything except some chains and pendant for her accessories. And i bought clothes again. Before going home, we went for some ice cream. There's this person talking about the fortune for the new year. And just happened that when we reach there, he was talking about the zodiac snake. He said snake people offend the 'tai sui' and when new year comes, need to attend more auspicious events. If no such happy event our lives will not be going smoothly. He also said about going abroad for 3 days. Wear old clothes go then throw away, and wear new clothes back. Sounds really funny. Anyway, after finishing our ice-cream we went home.

As for today, went grandma's house for praying to grandpa. Left at afternoon to go see for my shoes and mum's clothes. End up is daddy who bought a shirt and not us. (-_-)" Me and mum went home with nothing cause we didn't saw any nice ones. Maybe tml morning mum is going to look for her clothes one last time and my shoes too. Oh and bro bought a t-shirt and pant for 108 bucks! That's far too expensive man. The t-shirt was cheated cause it should only cost about 30 bucks. But for the pant, i think it is quite okay lar. Not bad. Bro is always like this. See girl sales person serve him, he will don't know anything. Blindly pick that shirt when he thinks the other one is nicer. No cure. (-_-)" That t-shirt cost 58 bucks. I want vomit blood le. Cannot let him go buy clothes alone again or else the same mistake might make again. Its late now, have to go to my lala land. Sweet dreams everyone. =)

- I hope i am not sinking deeper in this craze -

yeehahaha

Hohoho. I add a frame to my blog. And it's done by ME!!! Haha. First time do blogskin, so not very nice. =) But i am so proud of myself. Heez.
Com skill and database tests are over. Just hope that i can get at least B. Not much confident in these 2 papers unless the lecturers mark leniently. Anyway, CNY is less than a week away from now. Don't have any mood to go visit my relatives. Haiz. There's exams to worry about, finding work matters to worry about and gathering with my girls. My mind is going merry-go-round now. I can't think now. It's 12.38am now, and i am so tired already.
Good nightz peeps. =)

wee o wee

Change my blogskin. =) The picture on top, nice? Haha. I think everything looks ok to me but will improve on it when my exams are over.
Another round of common test coming soon, real soon. It's this thurs and fri. And i don't think i got any info in my mind. Brain = blank. What to do? The Maths that i studied in sec school, i forget most of the methods and formula which i need now. I am going to be in deep sh*t when the papers are on my table. When i start studying my head will be in pain. Bad head. Bad brain. All i could think now is the k-box session after my common tests. =X Everyone is working hard but i am slacking down! Why am i always like this??? Haiz. Help me...

weeee~

Hohoho. All projects have ended. =) COS was cancelled so me,ting,and elaine went for our shopping trip! =D So happy today. Finally a stress free day for me. Only a pity that i didn't see my Wu Chun. =( But it's okay, i'm sure there would be more chance to come. =) Bought a one-piece clothes. Black and white. And i am gonna wear that on CNY! Wahahaha! No one will scold me right? (-_-)" The 3 of us bought different flavours of 'mai ya tang'. Yummy. =P And today's wind was super strong. Our hair were like so messy all the time. Haha. There's Autoware test tml. I don't know anything about it. Hope teacher won't make it so difficult.
Yawn* Off to bed now. Nighty nightz. Sweet dreams to me. =)

noooooooooooooooooooo

Haiz. Shihui is NOT happy today. Absolutely not happy. She didn't get to see her fahrenheit. She is getting all tensed up for tml presentations. She is still doing her script NOW! =( And her eyes are shutting down soon. She wonders if tears would flow out this time. But nope, her eyes are so dry. There's a feeling she couldn't do well in tml's presentations. =( She is sad. She is finding for things that could cheer her up. Anyone knows? And she desperately want shopping. She can't remember when was the last time she had a proper shopping trip. Only shopping for new year's clothes makes her feel that Chinese New Year is coming. Oh ya, and the red packets that she will get this year would be SOOOO little. Hence, she isn't very looking forward to this year CNY. To add on, exams are after CNY. Can you imagine how 'happy' she would be during the first day of Chinese New Year? Lets talk no more. She is getting so tired. Hope everything isn't what she expects. Nightz everyone.

wooo~

Whoo~ yesterday end my worst nightmare - java project. =D Feel like i am so 'light' now, floating in the air. Haha. Left 1 more to go and is Com skill presentation on Monday. Have quiz on COS today. I had a feeling i didn't do well. =/ Next was a 2+hr break. Went ELP to redo the Database project cause there's some flaws in it. Manage to finish it within a short time. =) Aiping went to help others with their java project while me playing her Pokemon. Haha. It's been a long time since i last touch pokemon games. But still, i manage to train her torchic to lvl 10! HAHA. =D And tingting was too high today cause she was meeting her old friend. And lots of blahblahblah things keep coming out from her mouth. I was like showing this kind of face > (T_T). While waiting for her friend, me and tingting had a short talk at the mrt platform. Had quite the same feeling as her. Hope everything does not turn out as what we think. I just pray that life would be smooth sailing. =)

damn those projects =(

Projects' date due are getting nearer and nearer. But i feel like i had done nothing. Yesterday was absolutely doing nothing at all. Seems like i always like to avoid when date dues are coming nearer. I don't have a slightest motivation for my projects anymore. Everything is just going out of my way. I am lost once again at this point of my life. Get an A for my maths common test. Good result? Nah. I have already said, don't put hopes on me cause those hopes will turn into disappointments. A good example will be my O'level. My secondary school friends would know what i mean. My life is like a mountain, i can climb up till the peak but soon, i will fall. And not just normal fall, i would fall badly. I know history will not 100% repeat but it may repeat. Some words are left unspoken but i hope everyone understand. And i don't think my Chinese New Year will be a happy one. Exams are just around Chinese New Year. Have to study even though it's holiday. Sad. =( And i want to meet Fahrenheit!!! But my projects aren't finish, how am i going to see them. Double sadness. =( It's a new year now, right? Shouldn't everything be starting fresh and new? Argh..why am i emoing again?!! Okay, enough of everything. I am going to throw my emotions here and find back the energetic me. =) Growing up is tough but fun, correct? =)

my vacation!!!

Omg, school starts today. No mood at all to study. Today was just somehow slacking away. K, don't talk about today le.

Hmm... ya...last week went for a year end vacation at Cameron Highland. Left at 29 dec night time and only reached there at afternoon. Such a long journey. And what made it so worst is the bus break down half-way on the road about 2am. And the road is damn dark cause no streetlights. A lorry almost hit our bus. =X During night time, all the vehicles were going at high speed plus the sleepy mode they are in, no wonder that lorry didn't saw our bus. Stay on the road till about 5am as they had already called another bus to come. And that lousy bus manage to drive to a nearest petrol station to rest. (-_-) About 5:30 or so, that bus came! Change bus and sleep all the way. By the way, both bus are SUPER shaky and bumpy, so can't really have a nice sleep though. And yeah, going up the HUGE hill is way too BAD. The road is curve right then left then right continuously for 1 hour! And i got bus sick. =S Reaching there, the tour guide spoke a lot of 'rubbish' and i don't know why we join the 2 tours for the second day. Cause our tour initially is on the first day only, since everyone want to go then no choice lor. Suck our money. =X And up we go to our hotel. Ate lunch and began our tour.

There are really many plantations of flowers,strawberries,catus,tea,vegetables and also honey bee farms. Tasted a lot of strawberries stuff. *Sweet* And the catus valley, haha, was fun ya, cause of some blahblahblah jokes. xD The tea plantations are magnificent. The kind of things you see in those geography books. The whole mountains are full of tea leaves. And ya, during the tour we were sitting in small van. The road is damn narrow and curvy and steep, just surrounding the mountain. A little mistake and you would fall down. And all the drivers who drive us are so skillful, fast and smooth. Haha. Just like roller coaster?! And bro and cousins and somemore people went to the jungle trial but i didn't, cause i didn't bring extra shoes. Oh, and the first night we even try the room service. Order 3 plates of food, its big plate that kind. And we(5 person) almost couldn't finish the food. And we want to go for the countdown party at the hotel ballroom but think need money or what. So off we go to our hotel room. I didn't even countdown at all, was too tired. Slept all the way to 7am.

On 1st jan, ate our breakfast and wait and wait for our bus. It should have came at 9 but it came at 11. (-_-) While waiting we were playing pool. The adults are damn funny. Played the kind of using "bbq" like sticks soccer. I don't know it was so fun. Played quite a lot of rounds. Kept changing coins to play. Hee. And later going down the hill was extremely BAD! Now not even me get bus-sick, in fact almost everyone were bus-sick. Been there once is more then enough. But the air there is fresh and cooling. =D There's fun and boring part la. K, end of my vacation's summary.

Bye. =)