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This is a dead blogger. (-_-) Seriously, i don't know what to blog. Everything is just as normal as it could that nothing interesting for me to blog. =/ AP's birthday is coming but will there be any celebration? Everyone seems so busy. Haiz. Anyway today went school for 3 hrs only. Almost forget the lecture is pushed forward. The lecturer is so DAMN boring lor. Actually i am not in the sleepy mood. But the more she talked, the more i yawned. Add on to the cold condition, i almost doze off. Tml lesson is at lab. At least i got to do something practical, or else it would be a boring day again. Most probably would be cutting my hair tommorow. Hope it turns out nice. =) Lalala... I keep on having weird dreams nowadays. Maybe because of lack of sleep, i don't know. Sometimes i don't even remember what i dreamed, i only know it was weird. Kkz, i am off to my lala land now. =)

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I wanna change my blogskin again. (>_<) But i need a designer. =X Haha. Cause my drawing sucks, i only know coding. =p School today was not bad. =) But the lecturer is weird. He squad on the chair while teaching?! How weird is that? I wonder why can't he just sit down, maybe his ass got problem? =X Another weird case is in the mrt. There was this boy/guy walking to and fro in front of me. I was sitting at one side. He looks like a boy from the whole but look closely, he got an 'uncle' face and he got big belly. Just like an ah pek who drinks too much and got big belly. And he dressed like an ah pek too. =X Opps* I shouldn't have comment someone like this right? Everyone has the rights to dress what they want right? Hehe. Alright, i got to go sleep now, school starts at 10 tmr. Hope it will be an interesting day. =D

the peaceful day~

School today was peaceful, really peaceful. Tired days are coming soon in fact, i am tired now. Somehow my brain is not working hard enough. All the infomations have been going in one ear and coming out the other ear. Yesterday after hearing what bro said, i felt so low~. I don't want myself to be like that too. But my body and brain just hold me back too much. I envious everyone... i can't do what they do.


i love my family. =D I love my bro cause he understands me the most. I love my mum cause she makes me feel like a little girl everytime. I love my dad cause i am being dote on. x)

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I am so damn vexed with the sms half an hour ago. ARR~ it's in chinese, i post it here see who can answer it. “考考你的智慧：什么车无轮？什么猪无嘴？什么驴无毛？什么屋无门？什么书无字？什么花无叶？按序每句迷猜一个字，六字能连成一句话。” Anyone can answer? People just keep sending and sending but don't have the answer!!! (-_-)" So i don't have the answer too. I am waiting and waiting... and i can't solve it. Argh. I think i heard this somewhere before but can't really remember. =/ Anyone knows the answer???

arrrrgh~

Argh~ The Computing Maths is driving me crazy. Don't know what it wants, can't get the answer. =( Have to use what complement when you can actually minus straight away. Haiz. Maths are just so complicated. Tml have com skills again. I hate that module even though it is important. And tml is gonna be a long day again. =( *blues blues*

I reject AP's offer of watching Death Note, and i reject PW's offer of watching Death Note too. I think i disappoint them, sorry my 2 girls. =/ Just because both of them ask me on the public holidays, damn expensive to watch during those 2 holidays. I'm so poor. Therefore, i end up not watching Death Note. It's ok, i watch it's anime then. =D Oh ya, been playing O2Jam for the past 2 days. I am still a newbie in it. Can't clear a lvl4 song yet. =(

And here is my dad adding on to the PSI in our house by smoking and smoking. (-_-) I am going to suffocate soon.

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Stupid blogger. Want type a post also so difficult. Anyway, my back is so pain now. I don't know why. So unbearable lor. Haiz. It seems like most of my classmates are feeling "down" or what. Hope they can be happy again. I wanna see the smile on everyone's face. =D When i said everyone, i really mean EVERYONE, including some who i am not so close also. I don't like to carry all these problems with me. I throw them on my blog. xp Haha. Last few days the haze was like keep on staying at unhealthy level. I think my health sort of affected too. Sore throat, headaches, Stomach not feeling good, and now back pain. x( Have to drink more, more and more water le. =) Oh ya, and school today was fine. The DMD lab was quite interesting, although the lecturer is boring at some times. Get to play with with Photoshop again. Weee~ xD It last for 4 hrs (-_-) damn long lor. Have to finish up 2 lab assignments at once. But both are easy la. =) Next is the Database. The lecturer taught so fast lor. 1 hr finished a few chapters already. So gan chiong. =X All right, i'm so tired now. I better go rest if not my back sure break.

bad start...

School starts today. Damn bored lectures and tutorials make me wanna sleep so much. I like none of the modules. Bet i am going to do badly for this sem with so much things going on around me. I wanted to close my eyes so that i don't see the things i don't wanna see. But my eyes couldn't let me off. This kind of feeling is so weird. This is the first time i ever felt this way. ShiHui ah ShiHui, you don't live the way you live in secondary school now. You gotta be strong cause 'this' is how you know to be independent. Even though i know things like this is bound to happen, i just can't accept this life of mine. I am trapped in here. Why did i in the first place come to this place? I don't belong here, in fact, i don't belong anywhere. It seems like everywhere i go, i will bounce off from there. Maybe there is a place where i belong, i belong to me, myself. You never know how glad i am to see my galz when i go home. I feel like sticking to them forever. We don't say the word 'forever' cause we are already part of one another lives now. Without any one, it's like cutting my flesh off. I am so weak, so weak.

anti-school!!!

Arrr... school starts tmr. Seriously i don't like school, i don't like studying. =( I don't how am i going to face my classmates after such a long break. Will we get further apart? I wish everything stays in year 2004. =/ Maybe that's the best year i had. What to do? What to do? What to do???

daily updates

Wednesday - Went to Marina Square then to Suntec then to Bugis. Finally i got my ears pierce. =) But it seems much more pain then last time. And the person put so much solution on my ear that it made my neck so wet. (-_-)" Fen bought a lot of things cause she just got her pay. But seeing her spending like that, the money will be gone soon.

Thursday - Didn't went out. Was mugging at home watching Goong. Haha. watch it on youtube, it will be better if bro bought the VCDs. =D He said he was going to buy, lets see if its true.

Friday - Was waken by PW's call. I was still in my lalala land lor. (-_-) Went to eat lunch with fen and PW at ChongPang's mac. Saw my ex-classmate working there. He even said he is promoted to manager. Pro right? He said he is working part-time but doesn't he need to study in the day? The time at that moment was about 2pm and he study at nanyang JC?! Did he skip school? O_O After that fen went to buy her contact lens. I feel like changing to contact lens too but the thought of putting something in my eyes turns me off. By the way, its friday the 13th, unlucky day. We wanted to board the bus to SSC but when we reach the bus-stop, the bus just drove off. =( No choice, waited for the next bus. Both of them told me how unlucky they were that day. (>_<) It seems like the curse of bad luck has fallen on them. Haiz. Cheer up my girls. Walk one round in SSC and went out. Saw the bus to Sunplaza and board it. Walk around, fen saw a slipper she like but don't have the size she wants. sad* I can hear the unlucky charm ringing again. Nothing much happens after that.

Saturday - Was at home the whole day again but not alone. Slacking and watching tv. The jacky wu's GUESS show was damn nice. Seeing all those small little kids dancing like a pro makes me so jealous of their talents. (>_<) One of them was a boy who dances hip-hop just like an adult! Was attracted to him just like Rainie Yang. =D Loves him~!!! I wish i had a child like him when i grow up. xD

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Hmm... what did i do for the past few days...
Friday - Went shopping a little. At night went out to play. It was fun but hot. =)
Saturday - Basically it is just any other day at home. Nothing to talk about.
Sunday - It's Dad's birthday but didn't quite celebrate though. =/
Monday & Tuesday - I don't know what i was doing. Seems like these 2 days didn't exist at all. =X

So, to conclude, i am a no life girl. (-_-) Tml going to pierce my ears again. Hope it does not end up like last time, if not i am not going to pierce anymore. =( Somehow i am having a communication break down with everyone except my mum and bro. I don't know how to face my relatives & friends. Since when did my life become so miserable. I don't know. I only know i am not the girl i used to be anymore.

I seem to be like this kitten, so sad looking...

Sometimes i want to move forward, but i find myself not moving at all. I am still standing on the same stone cause i can't see any stone ahead me. Sometimes i need a shoulder to cry on but i found none cause i am alone...

Lalalala...

This sem break seems so long, as if half a year has past. I feel like school start earlier better but thinking of all the stress i am gonna go through, its better this way now. =) I am so bored, so BORED!!! Haiz. I am sleeping all day. I feel like a pig now. x( Daddy said he wanna go abroad work. But me and mummy opposed strongly. Daddy still insist that what's wrong with going abroad to work. And we tell him that his health problem,money problem and lifestyle are just not compatible with the Aussy. And still he had lots of his reasons to go. He want to earn many many money. You know what is bu fang xin? I don't know why he want to go there work so much. Half a year come back once only. And his zhu peng gou you gonna accompany him. Obviously, they will teach him bad things de. My daddy is just like a small boy now. He say that he already agreed with his friend le. So now what?!! What for discussing with us when you had agreed to go? I don't know him la! He want go then go, i don't care much le. He is already 'old' le, still can't think clearly meh. Mummy said ask grandma see if she allows. So, in the end i still don't know what would happen. =/

monday blues O_o

Oh ya, bro went to malaca today. I am alone at home again. Pw got into jap too. Haiz, so many people got into jap but me. =( Suddenly felt abit sad la. But i am okay now. =) Mooncake festival coming soon and i going out that day to play. =D Hope nothing blocks my path to having fun. I am starting to think about all the flavours of mooncakes. =p *Yum Yum* And i am so looking forward for the show "Goong". Heard that it is super nice. =)

I wish.. i wish.. i wish that i am a freaking rich girl, so that i can buy all the things i like. But... i am NOT. =/ But then, not rich people can have not rich people kind of fun. =D Hahas. I don't know what am i typing now. I just post for the sake of updating my blog. =x Heez. Bye Bye.

am i still here?

Why can't i live in dreams, in fairytales, or just any place where only happiness stays. Why do humans have 'feelings'? Why must god makes life to have moments which are bad? I want to be happy every moment, every second, even though i am content with everything now. Say i am greedy or what, i don't care. At least i face myself, and know what i want.

Don't care the above paragragh, it sounds so emo right? Nah~ i am not emo nor am i sad or what. I am just wondering about so many things in life, the people that i met in my life. Every little thing may change our path.

Anyway, thanks mummy for giving me the ability to see so many beautiful things and people. =)