away i go

I'm getting so tired of my life now. I don't know what makes everything seems bored to me. Sometimes i feel like struggling, sometimes i feel like i can enjoy everything. Maybe something is lagging in my life. Maybe it's just me being paranoid. Wait till i found it, this blog is going in hibernation.

free and away

It's OVER! Exam ended and so does this crazy semester. Freedom is the word to describe my feeling. I couldn't care for the results anymore cause i know it would drop. Just hope i won't repeat any module. And for this break, i have no plan. I just wish to work and enjoy. And recently i watched lots of movies online. Guess this is the best activity to do when you are bored at home. =) I slept 11hours on the first day of my holidays to mend for the past few days of struggling. Craving for lots of food recently, hope i won't get fat. =X

hiding away

Emptiness

I can't get myself to start studying. Can't get the mood right. I did take out the books and notes but i just stared at it. Time is running out. I have a bad feeling for this coming exams. I don't know what is this kind of feeling, but i know it's blocking me from studying. Why do i keep on having emotions which i don't know what it is. Nothing makes me feel right. Everyday i refuse to wake up from my bed. I wish i could just sleep and sleep cause this time i feel really tired. I like the sunshine that shines on me when i open my eyes. I like the morning breeze that blows through my windows. I like the bolster that i hug everynight. But i don't like the routines of my life after these. The colors on me are getting dull each day. Eventually, everything will turns black. And the world is so big, it's amazing how two strangers met. There's a stranger but it's impossible.

down

Tml is doom day. And i am 90% sure cause i just can't get the info store in my brain. Brain blockage. Nothing works now. It's not a test on knowlege, it's a test of memory. IS test is gonna be the worst ever cause i wasn't listening at the lectures except one or two. I think most people hate it too. I gonna try stuffing info in my brain again before going sleep. My eyes are holding back the tiredness. I feel so machine.

oh no.

1 August

It's hell today. NTP's presentation was soso only. IS lab test is gone. Accounting paper is gone. And there's RAD lecture and lab test tml!!! I can't make it, really. Someone with a sick brain like me, can't really memorize and think properly right now. And common tests are coming. Teach me how to survive in this world please.

[i know an apple per day keeps the doctor away. But right now, nothing helps.]

31July

I shall die tml. x( There's NTP presentation and Accounting test and the IS lab test which i am still unsure about. And right now, i still can't get all the formulas for accounting in my head. And the presentation, i don't know how well can i make it. That stupid lecturer ask us to put make up and wear formal. Why other lecturers didn't care about formal but this does? I hate formal. Argh~ i just wish this sem ends faster. I feel like a crazy student, always rushing for projects, tests and assignments. Lesser fun times, year three would be worst, am i right? And why does our course has so many modules? The animation project which i haven even start, is gonna die too. Now that i look at the paper more clearly, i find that it is harder than what i imagine it is. At first i have about 50% confident, but now it drops to 30%. I have no idea where should i start. Arrrr~ can i cry? (-_-)

[blow blow~ Blow my troubles away.]