Insomnia

I wonder why I can't fall asleep now. Is it because I didn't treasure my sleeping hours, that's why the sleeping god took away my ability to sleep? Or is it because my stomach isn't feeling well? I don't know, if I know I wouldn't be lying on my bed typing this post. I wonder why my stomach is so weak. It can't take spicy or too oily food.
Ahhhh~ I dunno wad am I typing here. I just wanna get my brain bored so that it won't keep thinking and thinking. My body is tired, my heart feels tired too because it is still working hard to pump blood into my brain!! Why can't my brain be good and rest?!! I watch mummy went to work just now. And now bro and daddy is up for work already. =\ No good, no good. I'm still meeting my friend later on. I need some sleep!!!!

mid holidays

Half of the holidays have passed by. And I'm still slacking at home, didn't want to go to work. I know it's bad to let this long holidays gone to waste at home, but i just don't feel like working. But being at home doesn't seems any better. Everyday it's just me, alone in the house. Every night i see my family for about 4-5hours? And back to the routine when I'm alone again. Feel so useless in this house. This feeling gets worst when i know i couldn't change my thinking. Few days back, i had a dream. I wake up in tears and hope this dream will only be a dream.

It's raining heavily outside now. Wonder where will be flood again. On this kinda weather, it makes me emo more. I looked out of the window. The rain drops were huge and continuously. It seems like an enormous kettle is pouring down. =/

I've been thinking about the past a lot these days. Way back when i was in primary school. I like how dumb and naive back then. Those little admiration i had, i never told anyone. And those bickering i had with some people, thinking of it sometimes bring a smile on my face. =) Later on was secondary school life. It was a place where i grown up very fast and learn a lot. It was also a place where i met all sorts of people, and know something special. Everyday is school but everyday is filled with fun and joy. =D On the other hand, people change very fast too. Some turns better, some turns bad, and so i had a new way of looking at people. Anyway, those days were the days i wish it never end.♥ Moving to next stage, i thought i would go to a JC, but i couldn't and I'm glad i didn't. ☺ Polytechnic sounds better, right? Keke. Everything there were so like a stranger to me. You have to start from the beginning again, to learn every simple things. Know a lot of friends, and amaze they still notice me even though I'm behaving so quiet. =) Oh, and i came to know about how i kept everything inside my heart. Right now i'm still the same. =/ Uni? Needless to say, it is hell. The pace is so fast. You need good brain or you will have to be like bookworm. @_@ Of course I've to turn into a bookworm cause i don't have good brain like others. Some days, i really felt quite lost in Uni. Wondering why am i here? Is it just to escape from the working life?