sickness again!

"I am in a gonna shop then drop, then shop some more kind of mood." quote from metro. Thats what i am feeling now cause GSS is here! Weee~ lets shop one last time before the gst rises. =D But right now i am down with flu. And i don't know why i keep on tearing? O_o Is it because of my flu? It can't be flowing upwards right? (-__-) Anyway, there's so many projects on hand now. And the common test week is getting nearer. And my sixth sense tells me that i am not going to do well this semester. Seriously, i don't quite like this sem modules. Everything is just so boring with all those codes and commands everywhere. Memory skill is so impt. I don't think i learn anything but just forcing myself to remember the things. And my health. It seems like i am getting so weak nowadays. I find myself to be acting so slowly, like an old woman. My dark circles are showing on my eyes again. (=_=) Sigh*

真的好讨厌现在的我哦，要是时光能倒流该多好。

想做什么，就做什么。

别等后悔了才失望，因为那时候已经太迟了。

好好珍惜每一秒，过得幸福快乐才是人生的目标。=）

家人，朋友，陌生人，我都希望每个人是快乐的。

不是在敷衍，不是在做作，只是渴望那么一天。

sucky monday

What should i post? I dont know. I hate every single thing now. I hate the kind of unexplainable(is there such word?) relationship with my classmates. I hate myself for not changing even if it is already year2. I hate myself for being suspicious of having financial problem. The fact is i dont know the truth. My brain isn't working at all but the brain cells are dying each day. How long does it takes for all the cells to die? How long does it takes for me to evaporate from this world? If i can, i wish to be MIA, a real MIA. An escape from this world of mine. Or should i say, away from this country,Singapore. The life here is making people not able to think purely, clearly, simply. Hah. I dont know why i am typing this post. Actually there is nothing big happens today, but my emotions are being messed up. Whats causing me to be so 'emo'? Everytime i am reaching school, i had a weird, cant be explain kind of feeling. Its like i am out of my breadth. It seems like i am back to my sec4. The feeling is the same, hate to go school. Theres just things which i dont wish to tell anybody, at least i dont wanna tell face to face. I am hating NYP more each day. I envious my bro of his poly life. At least his was more smooth sailing than mine. Maybe from the start i got everything wrong. I cant turn back anything now. My entrance had closed, whats left is the Exit door. I will just walk slowly and carefully towards it then. I dont want any thorns to hurt me.

sunday blues

Its Sunday today! Hah, obviously it's sunday. (-_-) I am having Sunday blues now cause i know i will be having monday blues tomorrow. Get it? And i think there's some network quiz tml. =( But glad that it is MCQ. =) And there's night class tml. =( But glad that Tuesday is a no school day. =) So, should i be happy or not, about my life now??? Oh, and my appeal for module didn't went through. That means i have to face that old monster for this whole semester. *doom* And there's one more thing. I hate it when the campus is crowded with people. Seems like there is just so many year 1 students. Squeezing here and there. Break time is the worst time. Have to walk over to North Canteen to eat as South Canteen is flooded with people. Mac's long queue also turns me off. And the damn Food Junction is under renovation to Koufu. (-_-)" Nightmare year. K, enough of this damn school life. Hate it.
And i wanna slim down!!! Seriously, i am getting more and more fats on my body. I dont wanna be a fatty girl. =( Noooooo~ i will not let it happen. Got to shake off all this fats by this semester. Hope i can.