a loner.

Emo stuff is invading my brain again...

Why do i always feel so alone? Not physically left out but mentally left out. I wonder if those i consider as friend think I'm their friend? And i think again, are they just passerby or friends? I know i got the emo look on my face but sometimes it's just the neutral facial expression i has. No, i'm not unfriendly, just don't know how to speak up. I'm trying but seems like I've given up. It's so tired. I don't know why i get so tired so frequently nowadays. If i still stay like this, i think i can give up on the idea of a circle of friends.

And recently I'm getting so paranoid. I keep wondering are they talking about me? Why are they whispering? Am i doing the wrong thing? What should i do? Am i a weirdo?

When i look around, i wish there will be someone i can lean onto.

revive.

Thank God i didn't break down completely last week. Too much things to handle and too many messed up imaginations. I think i sort of know what i want now. That dream of mine, i shall build it up again, so that at least i have something to look up to when i lost. =)

On the other side, it's e-learning week for engineering modules this week. This means that there's no lecture and tutorial, but we still have labs. That explains why i still need to come back school. I dunno where the hell bro heard this from. He said that only 80 people from computer science for last year Yr1 passed??!!! I was like OMG!!! How can? I don't wanna repeat any modules. It will be so time consuming and wasting energy. I really hope i will use this week to buck up myself. Been in a slacking mood since the day i can't understand most modules. Seriously, all the things that i learned aren't unfamiliar, but i just couldn't get my mind to focus and rewind to all those things in my brain. Argh, this seriously sucks man.

it feels like an all-time summer in hostel. >_<

falling...

Why is it that i keep wiping but the tears just keep dropping? What is happening to me? Why does it seems like the world that i live in is breaking down soon? What to do?

Tell me this is just temporary...