week3 day1

It's the 3rd week of IAP already. Time is not going fast nor slow. The everyday routine is tiring me out. Plus the flu i'm having now, my working progress is greatly affected. My mind wasn't so right today. I almost make a mistake that the company might has some lost. And there's mosquitoes in my house. Makes me itchy all over. And home's pipe is having some problem. If the tap is turn on too big, the water will came gushing from the hole on the floor, and then flood. Bro went to buy parts for the new cpu. He hasn't come home yet. Think he will be staying over at his friend's house. And wed off he go to search for that Mas Selamat(spell correctly?) Won't be back till 2 weeks later. Haiz. That damn person makes the whole sg couldn't have a peaceful day. And i wonder if there is God in heaven? If there is, can they hear my prayer? I just want myself to be more smarter. At least the IQ & EQ for my age. I feel so dumb in everything. Feel like i couldn't do anything smoothly. I want to be independent but independent makes me feels lonely. Sometimes i just wish i hadn't grown up, hadn't understand so much. Enough of this emo entry. Some random pictures from don't know when till today's.

It's 1+am now, gotta go sleep. Nightz all.

extreme tired

Ah~ I feel like i'm a part-time maid plus admin! Does an admin really need to do so many stuff??? And the boss talk to me today. He said he have a project for me. O_O It is to improve on the current web or add any things which is useful to the company. OMG. I really have no mood to crack my mind for now. I'm already content being an admin. I don't want any other stress anymore. Argh. Nvm, when he finds that i don't have the heart to do, maybe he will give up. Haha. Be happy, ShiHui. Tml is FRIDAY!!! Yeah~ 2 weeks have passed. Left about 10 more weeks. (-_-) Although i'm already getting use to my job, i still doesn't like it. Sometimes i wonder what is my strengths? Is it really the path i wish to take now? I don't know. I need support and comments. What will i be in future? I used to dream about being a singer when i was young but not now. I used to dream about being interior designer but where do i get the skills? My dream seems to pass by one after another. Which is the one that i'm going for? It's already the last year in NYP and i haven plan my future yet. Gonna be so lost when i step into the society. And i have been thinking about lots and lots of things while working. My brain's gonna burst soon. Anyway, results of the last semester gonna be out next week. Getting so worried about it. I had a very strong feeling that my GPA is going to drop.

Maybe i'll just hold back the tears.

When will you be within my sight?

Week 2

It's the second week of IAP and still the same. Work is boring. I miss my girls. Met them at amk after work today. I reached there quite late cause was being delay by that supervisor. I don't like her, not because she was mean but her attitude is weird. Suddenly hot suddenly cold, won't get what she wants. Anyway, was a short meeting with the girls. Tml have to work again. Sigh. Why doesn't time goes faster?! FYP-bored till no life? IAP - sucky life. Bro will be back tml! Finally, after 3 weeks of torture in Brunei. Haha. And yeah, i will be leaving office early tml cause i am going to attend the "Welcome back Heros!" party. LOL. Bro said it was mend to be a surprise for those army guys but all the parents went telling them already. (-_-)" So no surprise for them. Lalala~ let me escape to the heaven. >_<

Somehow sweet~

The start of hell days...

Aaaaah~ what a draining week. IAP starts on 3march, and all i can say is i hate the job. Imagine yourself having to face only two person everyday with the renovation workers. You don't even have colleague to talk to! The whole office is just the three of us! And i have to do so many things because i'm the only so called "employee" there. The supervisor keep on nagging and nagging. How i wish time flies now. I rather have FYP then IAP. At least i am not at some place which i don't like. And thank God, the weekend is here. I can only endure through the 3 months. And i can't celebrate fen's birthday this year because i have to work. Going to celebrate a belated one today and so does PW's one which wil be next week. And this morning i wake up in somewhat surprise feeling because i had a unexpectable, unbelieveable, so real dream. I gone crazy when i woke up. How can i have such dream?!! I'm not going to tell anyone this dream cause it's just so "crazy"? Ahh~ okay, going out soon. Bye peeps. =)

Just when i thought it will goes on forever..

poof*

everything's gone.

leap year 2008

Today, Febuary 29 2008. A day added once every 4 years. Things that happen today may took you a life time to wait. It may be really special but i'm glad that there's no special incident to remember. Went to had Suki Sushi buffet at Cine. We gobble up quite a number of plates the moment we start. And i think we order quite a number of plates of other sushi too. People from other table and even the staffs were staring at us. x) After munching for about 2hours, everyone except ping went out to walk awhile for digestion. Think the staff might be thinking that all of us are running away. Haha. Went back ate some fruits and cream puffs and i can feel that my stomach is bloated. Left the place about 3pm and went to catch The Leap Years. The theatre was full. It was a nice story and very touching. Consider a very special movie to watch for this particular day. I would rate it 4stars. =D There's this line - Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous. There's this coincidence that i may not forget for the rest of my life. But it came unknowingly and left so sudden. And it remains somewhat anonymous too. Anyway, had so much thoughts in one day. Two days left before attachment starts. Feeling very vexed. Especially when the place is so far away and so alien to me. And cheap labour of $440 pay. Nothing that makes me looking forward for it. And the word "working", does it sound related to me? I am so lousy in working. Feel like a noob in everything. All i experience is school. And right now i still don't know what kind of work i am doing. That makes me even more scared. If they give me complicated work which i hate, i think i will breakdown. I hate the lonely feeling even though i know in future i will experience this too. Just doesn't want to grow up so fast. Already 18 and i feel like i am still 15. I don't want to be an adult and never want to be one. There are so many things that kept me thinking and thinking. Not going to blog about them. I need to rearange my feelings before i can do anything now.

Happy Leap Year to everyone! =)

i should have wake up long time ago...

moody

When everything came crashing down on you, you know it isn't right. Especially when it's your mens time. You just get mood swing all the time. You can't really concentrate on things. And all those emotions came gushing to you. And sad to say, this falls on me right now. It's the second day of CT. The papers are fine but i'm not going to score well. Right now, everyday that passed is a day nearer to departing everyone. I don't like this kind of feeling. It feels so alone although physically you are not. No one can be of much help but i still pray for this someone to appear soon. Thinking back, when was the last time i smile truely and from the bottom all my heart? It must have been around a few years? I'm not too sure either. I tried to bring out more smiles. They weren't fake smiles but just not the one that i want. Maybe some day i will escape from this hectic world, just maybe.

long long time...

Hi people. It's already 2008 now. I know i'm so late to blog about new year and stuff. 1month seems to be so short for most people but seems so long for me. School is getting more and more boring each day. And the common test are like about 1 week later?! I'm worried about it but i just can't get myself to study mode. And i absolutely don't look forward for the attachment, fyp and year3 stuff. It just get me headache. Anyway, CNY is just 2weeks away from me. I am eyeing on those ang baos. Haha. And i haven get my new year clothes yet. Will be going on a last minute shopping after CT. To me, CNY is getting more boring each year. I still remember sleeping through the late afternoon till evening after collecting all the ang baos. See? How boring can it be? It's always the same routine with all the mahjong and poker and chit chat. "Life is boring."quoted from AP. LOL. And lets see what is the time now...5.49am!!! Haha. I must be mad to be blogging at this hour. It's not isommia or what, i slept from 1a.m to 4a.m on the sofa. Haha. Mum is already awake and getting ready for work. Better go sleep now. Will blog again when my blogging bug comes.

Wanted: a beautiful life that shines

CRASH!

One more week to common tests! I can die soon. Why does time passed by so fast? I still have so much projects to do even though it seems that i had already submit a lot of reports. I'm so looking forward for the two weeks break but now it doesn't seems so. The pace for every semster just got faster and faster. And i went to look at the school reopen date for next half semster, it says 31 dec??!!! That's the first time i ever came across school starting in last day of the year. Anyway for the time moment i still have to mug for the 200 questions for WDD and 30+ questions for IP. Madness!

There are so many things which i think i had already forgotten and wouldn't care so much. But when time takes me back to that moment, i can't deny that i am still confused. I guess i can't know what's the feeling until i experienced it. I hope i won't hang at this kind of moment for long.