Tommorow is FRIDAY! Haha. I love weekends more than ever now. Working life is so tiring. Now i understand why adults always say studying is the best. Yup, i think so now. The kind of you only have school work to worry about feeling, i kinda miss it. Secondary school's days are the most memorable. Cause that's when i'm really expose to the world, when i change so much, when i grown up so much, when i experience so much, when i understand so much. There's so many things that make up the present me. I want my future to be better and better. I want IAP to end faster. I want my FYP to be with my friends. I miss my girls so much. I want shopping. I want vacation. And the list goes on and on. But most importantly, what i need now is a nice long sleep and a sweet dream to make my day. =)

when life seems bored.

The 2nd month

It's already April. Right now i still don't like my job. I bet for these 3months my feeling will stay somewhat the same. My dark circles are getting from bad to worse. And no matter how much i had for my sleeping time, i always get sleepy during work. Even if i'm not sleepy at first, the long journey to work will sure put me in sleepy mode. This is so bad. And i hate my boss. He's a weirdo. At least i could get along with my supervisor who is so much friendlier than him. And these few days kept seeing a ren yao(half-guy half girl people). I can't be sure he/she is a female/male. Anyway it's none of my business. I miss my girls! Seems so long since we last met although it's just 2 weeks. It's already halfway of IAP. Let all these end soon, please. I should be going to bed now orelse i would get more nagging if i'm not in clear mind.

so tired to the extreme that i can't plan my future.

Will i go the wrong path?

It's Sunday!

It's already one month since the start of IAP. Everything was getting a bit better. But one thing i hate is, i have to give a reply to the boss next week on what can be improve on the web. I'm just too lazy to work on it. Seriously, i've got no motivation in this company. Nothing's wrong with the company nor the people, just me who can't adapt the working life of this job. Haiz, anyway i've got my pay already. Although its very little, but it still give me some satisfaction. =) Oh and i'm now blogging with my new CPU. =D It's definitely faster then that old and slow and buggy(as in virus) com. I want to install Photoshop CS3 but i can't find the serial, so can't play around with photoshop and other designing programs yet. I'm missing my life in the past. My life when i was still a secondary girl. Life was so much better way back, but i know i shouldn't stay on in the past. Since the start of IAP, the time spent with my family and friends have gotten lesser and lesser. I just want a proper break to have my mind in relax mode. There's some kind of emptiness inside me which doesn't go away.

i need to change, somehow.

week3 day1

It's the 3rd week of IAP already. Time is not going fast nor slow. The everyday routine is tiring me out. Plus the flu i'm having now, my working progress is greatly affected. My mind wasn't so right today. I almost make a mistake that the company might has some lost. And there's mosquitoes in my house. Makes me itchy all over. And home's pipe is having some problem. If the tap is turn on too big, the water will came gushing from the hole on the floor, and then flood. Bro went to buy parts for the new cpu. He hasn't come home yet. Think he will be staying over at his friend's house. And wed off he go to search for that Mas Selamat(spell correctly?) Won't be back till 2 weeks later. Haiz. That damn person makes the whole sg couldn't have a peaceful day. And i wonder if there is God in heaven? If there is, can they hear my prayer? I just want myself to be more smarter. At least the IQ & EQ for my age. I feel so dumb in everything. Feel like i couldn't do anything smoothly. I want to be independent but independent makes me feels lonely. Sometimes i just wish i hadn't grown up, hadn't understand so much. Enough of this emo entry. Some random pictures from don't know when till today's.

It's 1+am now, gotta go sleep. Nightz all.

extreme tired

Ah~ I feel like i'm a part-time maid plus admin! Does an admin really need to do so many stuff??? And the boss talk to me today. He said he have a project for me. O_O It is to improve on the current web or add any things which is useful to the company. OMG. I really have no mood to crack my mind for now. I'm already content being an admin. I don't want any other stress anymore. Argh. Nvm, when he finds that i don't have the heart to do, maybe he will give up. Haha. Be happy, ShiHui. Tml is FRIDAY!!! Yeah~ 2 weeks have passed. Left about 10 more weeks. (-_-) Although i'm already getting use to my job, i still doesn't like it. Sometimes i wonder what is my strengths? Is it really the path i wish to take now? I don't know. I need support and comments. What will i be in future? I used to dream about being a singer when i was young but not now. I used to dream about being interior designer but where do i get the skills? My dream seems to pass by one after another. Which is the one that i'm going for? It's already the last year in NYP and i haven plan my future yet. Gonna be so lost when i step into the society. And i have been thinking about lots and lots of things while working. My brain's gonna burst soon. Anyway, results of the last semester gonna be out next week. Getting so worried about it. I had a very strong feeling that my GPA is going to drop.

Maybe i'll just hold back the tears.

When will you be within my sight?

Week 2

It's the second week of IAP and still the same. Work is boring. I miss my girls. Met them at amk after work today. I reached there quite late cause was being delay by that supervisor. I don't like her, not because she was mean but her attitude is weird. Suddenly hot suddenly cold, won't get what she wants. Anyway, was a short meeting with the girls. Tml have to work again. Sigh. Why doesn't time goes faster?! FYP-bored till no life? IAP - sucky life. Bro will be back tml! Finally, after 3 weeks of torture in Brunei. Haha. And yeah, i will be leaving office early tml cause i am going to attend the "Welcome back Heros!" party. LOL. Bro said it was mend to be a surprise for those army guys but all the parents went telling them already. (-_-)" So no surprise for them. Lalala~ let me escape to the heaven. >_<

Somehow sweet~

The start of hell days...

Aaaaah~ what a draining week. IAP starts on 3march, and all i can say is i hate the job. Imagine yourself having to face only two person everyday with the renovation workers. You don't even have colleague to talk to! The whole office is just the three of us! And i have to do so many things because i'm the only so called "employee" there. The supervisor keep on nagging and nagging. How i wish time flies now. I rather have FYP then IAP. At least i am not at some place which i don't like. And thank God, the weekend is here. I can only endure through the 3 months. And i can't celebrate fen's birthday this year because i have to work. Going to celebrate a belated one today and so does PW's one which wil be next week. And this morning i wake up in somewhat surprise feeling because i had a unexpectable, unbelieveable, so real dream. I gone crazy when i woke up. How can i have such dream?!! I'm not going to tell anyone this dream cause it's just so "crazy"? Ahh~ okay, going out soon. Bye peeps. =)

Just when i thought it will goes on forever..

poof*

everything's gone.

leap year 2008

Today, Febuary 29 2008. A day added once every 4 years. Things that happen today may took you a life time to wait. It may be really special but i'm glad that there's no special incident to remember. Went to had Suki Sushi buffet at Cine. We gobble up quite a number of plates the moment we start. And i think we order quite a number of plates of other sushi too. People from other table and even the staffs were staring at us. x) After munching for about 2hours, everyone except ping went out to walk awhile for digestion. Think the staff might be thinking that all of us are running away. Haha. Went back ate some fruits and cream puffs and i can feel that my stomach is bloated. Left the place about 3pm and went to catch The Leap Years. The theatre was full. It was a nice story and very touching. Consider a very special movie to watch for this particular day. I would rate it 4stars. =D There's this line - Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous. There's this coincidence that i may not forget for the rest of my life. But it came unknowingly and left so sudden. And it remains somewhat anonymous too. Anyway, had so much thoughts in one day. Two days left before attachment starts. Feeling very vexed. Especially when the place is so far away and so alien to me. And cheap labour of $440 pay. Nothing that makes me looking forward for it. And the word "working", does it sound related to me? I am so lousy in working. Feel like a noob in everything. All i experience is school. And right now i still don't know what kind of work i am doing. That makes me even more scared. If they give me complicated work which i hate, i think i will breakdown. I hate the lonely feeling even though i know in future i will experience this too. Just doesn't want to grow up so fast. Already 18 and i feel like i am still 15. I don't want to be an adult and never want to be one. There are so many things that kept me thinking and thinking. Not going to blog about them. I need to rearange my feelings before i can do anything now.

Happy Leap Year to everyone! =)

i should have wake up long time ago...