happy new year! ^^

Its an hour before 2006. =) And here i am at home waiting to countdown. Actually i has the chance to go out but i reject everything. First, jenni's church organizing a chalet at aloha changi but don't feel like going cause not so familiar with her church friends. Second, relative's chalet at pasir ris but since no one wants to go,i have no mood too. So now i am watching television- Hollow man. This show has been shown quite a few times on tv but somehow i always miss it. I think thats it... and Happy New Year to all of you! ^^

darkness period

I m going crazy at home. Been stuck at this house for about 1 week plus. If things kept on like this, i think i would suffer from depression. =x Sometimes i wonder what do i like about my life? My dreams... cause thats the only time when everything works out perfectly. That is also the time when i know what the inner me feels and thinks. My memory is starting to get bad. Think it is because of not facing school and books for the past 1 and a half month. Wanting to get a job too but i m just too lazy to go find. Haizz... 4 days later who will remember?

slacking day~

Finally O' lvl end last friday. I am free from all those skooling =) Think its time to clear my books and bedroom. Planning to find job but not now cause i want to have some time of relaxation. These few days have been slacking at home except from moday went to watch HarryPotter & the Goblet of Fire. The movie was quite nice, quite different from the past few movie. I have no idea what am i going to do for the next few days. Maybe going town or start watching VCDs or playing ms or PS2. -__- [boring] Got to find things to fill up my long vacation or i will become mouldy soon. Oh ya, i am waiting for 'Chicken Little' to be show, heard that movie is quite nice too. Yup, dats it peeps.

depressed an more depressed

I think i am the failure of this family...they hope i could go to university, but now i think i couldn't even get to poly. I just don't want to admit that whenever it comes to exam, i get so scared. No one knows it. Oh god.. its O'lvl, not any small exams, it decides my future and i am slacking now!? I don't know whether i can still make up for the mistake i have made now, but i just got to try my best. My physic and chemistry can't affort to fail. Next three days-Physic, A-maths P2, history and chemistry. Today's A-M P1 is not gonna make it, i know it. So A-M P2 i am not gonna make the same mistake again. And my sciences, i think i can only concentrate on either one of them. Depressed and more depressed. ='(

bored day again >.<

Haiz... a boring day again! Today is sub-science de practical exam. Next week gonna be mine turn to sit for the pratical le. There are still a huge pile of homework waiting for mi, especially maths!!! To tell you the truth, these few weeks have been doing maths non-stop and teacher is giving us worksheet non-stop too. Arggh give me a break in maths k?

Tomorrow is graduation day. Finally the long await day come. Its gonna be a half-day for the graduating students. Then afterwards will be the graduation ceremony. Everyone have to go up stage, then the monitor will read out a speech. When everything is over, there's a buffet for us. Our class guyz are asking everyone to go out eat for the one last time tmr. Humm... i still dunno want to go a not cos lifen & peiwen still have not tell mi their decisions, but jenni is going ^.^ Anyway after O'level we will be separate. If there is fate, i believe we will meet again. I think i am starting to miss everyone, the laughter, the lame jokes, the way we are working hard for the exams, the way we could talk about anything under the sun... nice memories, isn't it? i am not going to cry tmr... i promise... i want to be a strong gurl. (=

a.l.o.n.e

No one understand mi.No one knows wad i want.They are in their world, i am in my world..alone...forever my life can't be perfect as i think. I am living in an urban world, in fact everything i see is 'man-made'. Y does people had to change such a beautiful world into their own 'paradise'? Does the word 'nature' ever comes to those people? Or am i just too sensitive? Haizz..i don't even know wad am i typing now. I am just so depressed... =/

Prelims over now...get back the results le. My feelings??>> [confused & in a mess] I dunno wad i have done this year. All i did was making everyone around my worried for mi. I dun wan this to happen too. But when i realised the importance of this year...it was all too late...too late to make my frenz & family bring dat smile for mi again. I hate myself, hate mi for being such a failure, hate mi for not caring enough for the people around mi. I try to be strong, i try to face any difficulties i had but when i fell into the hole for the first time, no one pull mi up..so i was left in the darkness. Till now i see a beam of light and i try to reach it but i can't. I still need someone to 'pull' mi up. I want to see the world again...i dun wan to stay in this dark hole alone...ever again.

holidays____

Whooo~ so fast end of sept holidays le, me haven enjoy enough.Gotta start on my revision le orelse sure die. Nowadays i have been listening to some songs and it brought back my childhood memories. Thinking about the times when i was small, so much fun, so much joys, no worries at all just pure happiness...how gd. Wish i had never grow up but tats not possible. At least i could dream....dream of me in paradise enjoying myself *HeEx* think i stop here le be back only after exams^^

Quizz again!

Your easy-going personality is best represented by
the bow and arrow. You probably dont like the
spotlight too much, and would much rather be
backstage making sure everything is working
right. You have a cool, level head and a broad
perspective on life. This combination makes
you an excellent advice-giver.

What sort of Weapon best Represents your Personality? (anime pics!)
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You are the depressed/dreamer anime girl.You either
lost somebody you love or somebody broke you
heart so bad that you can't pick up the
shattered pieces without hurting yourself.You
think nobody can heal your wounds but don't
stop looking because you never know who loves
you enough to try hell the one special guy
could be right infront of your eyes and you
don't even know it.You also love to day dream
because it seems like the only place that makes
you happy.But little do you know that people
all around you are trying to make you happy and
you won't let them in fearing you'll get
another heartbreak or get hurt worse.But just
try and if things go wrong just brush it off
and try again.It never hurts to try.One more
thing never let that lost love one leave you
heart keep them in forever and keep their
memory alive.

If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
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You, actually, dont sleep. There are just too many
things for you to do and see! Why spend half
your life lying in bed instead of enjoying
everything life has to offer?! Its not that
you are ridiculously hyper (usually), you just
have a far greater appreciation for life than
most people. Chances are youre very optimistic
and probably a little bit random sometimes, but
people love you for your happiness. Keep
smiling! Make someone's day! ^_^

How do you Sleep? (Anime Pics)
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Your anime hair color is blonde. You have always
been very good with people and find that you
have no trouble talking to people you don't
know well, or have just met. You tend to change
moods quickly. One minute you may be as happy
as can be, and the next you could be on the
floor sobbing. School has never been your
thing, but you could be better at it if you put
more effort into it. You are the kind of person
that everyone knows and no one has any grudges
against. You have a large group of friends that
love you dearly. You are known for wanting
relationships so badly that you will say yes to
almost any boy that asks you out. You are very
sweet and kind person, but gossip more than you
should.
Color: Rose pink
Month: June
Emotion: Happiness
Animal: Dog
Song: Embracable You
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